this few week i have been not doing well reson is use of some fear inside of me.. mayb i think too much or wad but i really thnx god for kel they all.
cny eve i really thnx god tat i have a good time fellowship wif kel group.. i really agree tat i have to brond wif my grp n my shpd too instead of telling some of them tat i close wid yes i can share wid them bt the 1st one tat i shld dhare to is god n my shpd den mayb to these tat i close wid to keep watch on me...
really thnx god for kel n ken to keep me on rite tack i donnoe wad can it be w/o these ppl in my life to teach me to care for me as a sister.. wad can it be? sometime i do think tat if one day god is not in my life wad would it be like? will it been the same old me or things change?
looking frm the life frm some ppl tat backsided they lead a life tat is soo meaningless their mind only have negative tot looking at them some time i pray tat god would call them back aga to the rite tack.
everytime i think of turn away there is a voice telling me tat god still love n care for me went i felt tat no one can understand me turly but god is alwyz there to listen to me tat he pour out the love tat i don deseve he letting me to cried on his shoulder n hug me to comfront me like a father tat comfront his child
sometime i do pray tat god will hold my hand walk thru this path the path tat donnoe wad is ahead of me i do pray for ppl ard me like my brother n frenz tat haven noe him to join me one day i also do pray for my bro & sis tat we will grow more in christ. =)
hopping to recover frm all these hurt soon! anw ytd finally get to tell everything to my dear shpd joleen n i am quite happy kat want to comited to cg YEAH! jus her call n sms really wake me up but i not angry at all alt abit like wah liu keep waking me up but after i still happy to c her desire to grow! finally my sheep has grow up!
hahax.. oh ya back to topic ya i had told everything to my dear shpd! =) there is nothing tat hide inside me wed our shpding was special want is so call " our retreat with god" we don have teaching or sharing but we read bible n worship god tgt really happy as i went to her hse den worship tgt read bible tgt
after tat xz came i noe in between the worship she keep calling me but i n worshipping so didnt pick up luhx... we went to prata shop n hav a long long chat i hear a v sad news now i cried but i think no one noe ba haha.. or mayb jol noes haix... sometime we don treasure thing until we loss it or gng to loss it den we treasure n regret is tat really stupid?
seriously i admit at time i am stupid tat i dn really tresure ppl ard me! until i loss it den i regret anw wad for regret the time wont come back anymore! we still have to look forward n not look backward rite holding back is no use its wont come back like i keep holding back the past wid my father but there is no use of holding back cause my daddy wont come alive anymore alt i some time dream tat my daddy is still alive but i noe its jus only a dream it wont be true at times i really really wish tat all the dream cme true but its impossible cos he no longer alive...
i found this song by jj lin yeah my favour singer... 1st time saw his song is like worship hahax... yeah jj rock 4ever..
here are the lyrics
cried in a distant
Cries in a distance
Cant stop the tremble
Im just awaiting my turn
Hiding will never
Save me forever
The guns gonna get me for sure
Dear God I pray why wont you be my friend
Come to me and take my hand
Like mama would say
Everything will be okay
All I hear is 3 2 1
The scream from the guns
And then 1 by 1
No one gets to run
Someones dad or mom
Sister, brother and son
No no
All I feel is 1 2 3
My tears start to bleed
Smell of roses on my feet
I feel sore
I fall
I call
I crawl
love;
