Thank you for loving me

Sunday, April 27, 2008

sat i donnoe was it a testin frn god or wad bt i endure through out it is a really tough day 4 me mmm.. mayb u all r wondering wad kind of day do i had i wont say it here cos i pro e person i wont write here n wont say out so ya i was discourage tat day through out e svc n celebration of jul bday if u observe u will noe i'm refering to who i was sad bt i didnt show its cos wenever i say my kai xin guo she some hw make me smile mayb her cheerful smile will enlight me to smile hehe...
anyway sat alt its been tough 4 me to endure all de harsh thing bt some hw i had wen through it sat sermond was abt what god like i hav learn god given us 2 kind of love one is tender love e.g all e blessing knowleage r frm him.
sec tough e.g all e test problem tat we encounter alt its frm him bt he nv giv testin or burden tat we cnt take n he will alwyz beside us to support us he will nvm fail us unless we fail ourself .
altra call time e love frm god is over follwing e presence r so strong frm e strt i was wondering shld put dwn my past in deep mayb i haven put dwn any of my past yet i donnoe i cnt 4gt e time wen i saw e one i love e one i respect de most r die-ing yet i cnt do anything to help some more i myself is a 1st aider n cnt save my love one hw unless isit?
i wont 4gt e last wrds i say to him "papa i go sch le bb" if i noe its e last time i gt to c him i wont gng to sch tat day some time hw i wish time cn go back n i pro i wnt disrespect u n alwyz make u angry lao pa i miss u last time shi wo bu dong shi shi wo bu hao daddy i really miss u 3 more day is e day u left us daddy u promiss me to celebrate my bday tat time n wen time draw near u left us b4 my bday u hav break ur promiss frm young till tat time u have been keep breakin ur promiss do u noe u last celebarted my bday wen am i 9yrs old til tat time u hav nt been celerated my bday 2 may is e day u pass away i wont 4gt e time hw me n er ge call u to wake up yet u didnt wake up we even sing ur fav song "ni she mo she de wo nan guo" we rmb u told us we cnt cried infront of u cos u will keep stay here tat y we wen out to cried i cnt 4gt i'm de one who e 1st n last one to c died tat time i rmb i saw ur heart beat frm 90-70-60-40-30-20 slowly ur heatbeat drop to 0 manzi jie was pullin me away as e doctor doin some checkin n e doc told us my papa had pass away my er ge was huging me n he was scared i cried bt i dint cried
对你的思念是一天又一
天孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你
一面秋天的风
一阵阵地吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过
对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过...

wei shen me ni na mo hen xin de li kai wo men lao pa wo hao xiang ni wei she me ni zai ye bu li wo le ne?
anyway sorry 4 e side track mm... was tokin abt e altra call oh ya ok mmm... at 1st wen pastor inivted us to go dwn inside my mind was two person one is my daddy another one was a guy who really hurt me deeply i was wondering shld i go dwn bt i wen dwn a tp leader was there bt i saw liyan was jus beside a uge inside me asked to go ask liyan to pray she i wen to liyan bt nid to wait as infront of me still gt ppl wen is my turn wen i told liyan my tear began to flow dwn i donnoe y she pray 4 me 4 sercuity she pray half way she suddenly pray 4 sercuity tat time i was shock bt in deep i was touch thnx 4 e prayer don worry i will keep growing liyan! smile....

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