Thank you for loving me

Saturday, January 12, 2008

today is a v boring day nv go out haiz sian slack at hm as usual lol anyway was wondering y ppl tends to backside frm god due to problems n ppl ard us? mmm jus read jul n emily n jason blog really garld tat they r fine n happy bt wad abt jul tat is in my cg? quite worry abt her as she was go through all the tough time like me bt she still cn hide her emotion well tat a gd thing bt wad abt me? ytd kaize did ask me today am i happy i was quite shock to c her msnin me writting tat oh my god i told her i am ok n i asked her y u ask

den she told me i seem to me v sad den i was like ??? huh wad u mean lol haha bt anw tat nt the main thing bt its has been v tough 4 me to let go of sm1 tat i love crazily bt i still try v v hard to let go of tat person askin god to help me anw as i read other ppl blog n i was thinkin hw long will i last to be child of god hw long will tis love last? i hav been noeing god 4 1yr plus bt hw long will my love stay? i asked myself tis bt i really dnnoe hw long tis love will last n will tis love last forever i dnnoe as time goes by the love will either fall away or geting stronger n stonger is nigther way

wen i think of tis i tend to b v scared n the peace has gone i dnnoe y bt i am really v scared i am so scared until smth i cnt even slp bt wad thing do i scared of i really donnoe ya postor jasmine say tat u go church every time doesnt mean u r spriture ya its really ture sme tym i did ask myself wad cn i really do 4 god n my own cg ppl i really dnnoe wad i cn do bt deep inside it i noe i cn do smth bt i dnnoe wad is tat thing tat i cn really do to ask ppl cme? i tried yet i fail wad els cn i really do? plan sme outing to bond my cg tgt i wan to bt i dn hav e money to open an chalet or gng outsad nw i dn even noe i nid to wrk ant sianz haiz i tink i will b set le ba since they hav enough ppl anyway gtg le hehe.. bb

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