jus wen to jul (laopa) blog some hw i see a reflaction of me on her y? cos of the stuggles she had jus to let u all noe abit abt my history
my father was a v lovly hot tempter guy bt he love us alot wen i was 9 one of the chi cls lesson my chi teach wen to pick a call its was hospital call sayin my father was admit to hospital cos of back bond injury den the doctor say he cnt fall away unless to opp bt the opp only hav 40% bt he tot of us cos he is e only support in our family my mama den wn to wrk so he wen for e opp bt wen he come out the opp was fail n he is disable 4 the rest of his life he was v angry n he use his angred on my kor n my mama slowly he appcet the fact n started to try find a job so tat he cn giv us a better life to live bt he fail wen i was 11 my gan jie she who is a christian come to us n giv us free turtion 4 me n my korkor den my mama started to wrk n came to noe a grp of christian n bring me to sunday sch while my mama n papa adentting adult svc wen a few time den we didnt go wen i was 14 i was adentting a course in my cca n in irc i came to noe a sister den we tok on msn ect... she tat time keep askin me to join her 4 party ect bt i didnt go wen i 16 my precious papa pass away n he promiss me tat he will help me cele my bday in resturantbt he broke his promiss i still rmb b4 i wen to sch he was abit some wrng bt i tot he was shou meng hua so i didnt care he ask me to swich on the tv n said byebye to him n it was my last time to say bye to him so i did n rush 4 sch wen i wen hm i was wondering y papa nv wakeup at nite i was kana wake up by the light i didnt noe wad happen n i saw my papa was gng in the hospital aga den i wen to slp aga as i still nid to go sch bt the nxt moring 5 am my mama wake me n korkor up sayin tat my papa cnt anymor we fast rush to the hospital bt papa didnt wak up n tok to us until afternoon th doctor say cnnt le he is dead i culdnt believe n hopping he will wakeup bt he did n my nite mare started frm here
maybe of insercute or lack of love i tent to find bf bt i cldnt find any n i keep hurting myself in these r/s n was stuggling n started to go out everyday slowly my seckor tat close to me leave us cos of his gf alt he will cme back bt i really dn wn to stay at hm n due to all the past i don trust ppl anymor n keep tellin lies to ppl n my kor keep commdent me keep bit me 4 nth dn wan to giv me money n my mama started to smoke everytime wen she go toilet so i tent to stay overnite outside instead of gng hm n my mama keep leting her bf to stay at my hus n i cludnt bath 2006 christam cele i was brought to god bt i didnt convert until jan i convert n stay in chc 4 6 mths may 26 i wen to say the sinner prayer in hope church n convert to hope church until nw reflact on my walk god did put his ppl in my life n i didnt convert until last yr n he show me real in my life too
to put his ppl to encouage me ppl like benard, yoana, windy, michael, jul, vindent, jason, kaisze, renny ect.. if nt i wont be here anymore siting dwn here bloggin i will be in heaven alrdy fellowship wid god or mayb gone crazy go ward 13 esp he put jul into my life gt a purpose to tell me nvr give up wen i face a diffcult timelike tis time i'm facing a person who timer me more den three time all the harted pain bittlerness angred explose in one time bt jus cnt hate him 4 mor den one days i hated him bt the nxt min wen we left i was missing him really tis is my third time heart break until cnt stand up i closed the door to other i may c tat im ok bt i shuted my door until tat time count dwn i was toking to jul she wake me up nw i tryin to stand up by my own n trust god aga anw gtg le byebye
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