yeah its been super super long since i last update wooo..... life still goes goes on everyday haha... Its been 7 month n yes i have been waiting for this 2 more month to go a new life will be brought in this world or mayb 1 month plus? No one knows =) hummps... Life being w a another half is much more diff compare w a single hood life... Lots of thing u hav to think n make decision alone hais... living w mother in law is much more diffcult tat i tot too... Mayb after when i give birth to my baby boy its more diffcult to maintain our r/s? who know wad happen next? i seriously everyday imagine wad would itbe like after i give birth? everytime dreaming abt my baby is born currently hummps... I hope my delievy wnt be a diff one hope baby is healthy alt everytime i go 4 scanning doc said he is v heathy yet i still v worry mayb i shld said i think too much liao hummps... every nite seem to be a slpless nite for me as i couldnt slp at all even i didnt slp in after i still cant slp in de nite hais... stop here for now
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hi its time back to back aga i had nv touch my blogger since 3 to 5 mths le but thing somehow goes not rite...
i had to said no matter wad i had gone thru its my fate to exprince all this up n down anyway i cant believe tat i can fall in love wid a guy once aga like tat time yet it end one day before our 1st months well i am still copping wid all the thing tgt
wrk had been v though no one can help me expect i ownself work it out a way i cant expected everyone to spoon feed me i hav to be indenpant now as i am old enough to thing hais lots of thing in my mind heart break in to many picese no one can utd i did wonder how i become like think its time to change to be a better person i hope i can still cope wid my current life now...
stress think abt rental n spence is not easy everything i ask myself use my own no one can help me only my self can depent on myself cause ppl come n goes... seriously i am super thing of everything in life XAVIER ONG JIA WEI u had successful tone my heart n ownself into many picese nice job...
i had tried many way to forget by doing wrk don think of him but its doesnt wrk i had try not to tok abt him its doesnt work wad can i do? i am really really tried to hold on acting i am ok le.. slpy thing stop here bye
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wow... Its been very super long wen i last touch my blog... Hmms...
abt my life currently working at taiwandang mircobrewy @ demspy hill its a v nice place to go but its v ex too... but i love the pork rib pork knacle ect... super nice...
althrough i found it was fun to working at there daning enjoy the band ect yet i found something tat is v ugly in this company which i hate it leader bully ppl to gain the power of leader or superviors every thing turn ugly to me i saw how black hearted a women can be now den i relise all the thing tat they are doing is to sercure everything including their status in de company gosh...
All the old bird bully the new bird seriously i really hope everything can stop!!! Who can really help us? Who can we go to? wishing everything is jus a dream but its a reality!!! Haiz....
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ytd should be the day of our one month anni will he still rmb will he still care? if tat day all thing nv happen will it turn up like this baby really sorry i really hope u will be back... but i noe its really is impossible for tat... but i am change... i really change le is not because u wan me change is i really wan to change..
really v xin ku now... most of de dream are all abt u everytime cant slp well cant eat well who can help me? dreaming of our sweet time de time we still tgt or something tat is related to it i really v scared who can help me really really scared... everyday i have to be ok to go work happy play around but who will noe? i am really really scared to loose u who will really noe?
God i really v tried really v v tried... i am gng to be crazy soon... most of the time wad make me wake up is de reson of he not here wid me anymore n i will be awake at time i ask myself is this wad i really wan? chasing a r/s tat is gone i donnoe i jus wan him be by my side even we r still fren i am still happy God i really love him alot pls pls don take him away i really wan him God i really nid ur stength to move on to change to become a better person i am half way thru le i nid ur strength to carry on... God i thnk you i pray in ur almighty name AMEN!!!
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Every thing has expoled all the emotion i trying to hide tat i tot its was gone yet it come back aga...
yesterday counselling session was v furitful in deed i cried n cired in tat session... saying all the thing i trying to hide out of it i finally i had found peace in my heart... somehow i found i am myself finally being true to myself... Finally i had take off the marks tat i put on... Thing i trying to hide cause i am scared no one will accpet me wen they noe i am scared to letting ppl noe my true self living wid regret living wid guild living wid unforgivness
i am really tried i wan to forgive n putting all thing behind move forward to my new day =) i have to jia you thnx joy for forgiving me alt i alwys ps u or come late u still love me thnx for sharing de vers wid me i'l alwyz rmb in heart matt 12:43-45
TO BE TRUE TO YOURSELF AND OTHER, OTHER WILL BE TRUE TO YOU
TO LOVE YOURSELF PEOPLE WILL LOVE YOU MORE!! JIA YOU!! DONT BE AFFRID OF PEOPLE WONT ACCPT U =)
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everything has turn in to an end.. the story of my r/s wid claude tan n r/s wid my er sao n frens y
1) aga i lie to them in order to keep them wid me
2) i told him abt the past he really hate me alot now
3) infront of ppl i am putting a mask only to my counsellor i no need to act as i am strong
claude i am sorry i noe i have let u down in de 1st place i shouldnt have started this r/s wid u baby... just wan to rest from all this i really hope tat the 1 yr promise is still there... i noe u wouldnt wan to forgive n forget abt it but still i hope u will forgive baby i hope u will c this i will wan u to noe i really love u alot i wanna be wid u for my whole life i really wanna to settler down i don wan to in out of r/s anymore cause of u i can c my futrue i wanna love u more n more...
they one yr promise i have prayed and let GOd decided if he still not the one i will move on till i found de one tat really will loving me... mean while i will wait n change my charater 1st from now on i will not say i don care anymore i wont lie if can i will choose not to say anything.. self control this will be my goal of changging another one is i wan to go back study study study...this will be my goal for this year!!!
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talk to claude jus nw on de phone for 2 hrs... But i get wad the point he is talking about.. I once was lost hopping for direction for a vision from GOD i think he ans... All i can is change n change n change... Putting in effort n more effort.. this will be tought...cant give up le mus finally wake up in my dreams... But i really hope someone will encourage me n make me move on to the next level..
refecting on myself I am living on this earth for gng to 22 yrs yet i haven see myself grow up... Wad hav i done in all this while? nth slacking n slacking n slacking... play play n PLAY!! tats enough of all this!! baby u r rite i cant always slack n doin nothing n this is not the thing i wan I wan to work i wan to really found a job tat really let me save n earn some income mayb i should go for F&B cause easily to past time no time to slack...
trying in sentosa n many ways out there to look for a stable job.. baby i hope u will be there to guide me n also God i hope tat God will alwyz in the cental of my life... so i can process... i must change lazyness no more i nid to change in this area so i will be self control fruit of de spirit...
i hope ppl will surpport me behide to encourge me wen i felt really wan to give up to hold on my convition to my furture.. I will try hard enough to change to c have a break through so ppl please i need ur surpport especially GOD n baby u i really nid ur all surpport me to move on in my life...
dear father i pray in ur name tat i hope the convition wont lost in the furture run... GOD i pray i will be substain in thing i convited in and i will try my best to do all i can n the rest i will leave it to You to help me encourage me n to comfront n give me rest God i give thanks in advance in Jesus name i pray AMEN!!
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