LoVe GoD & giving thnkz to HIM alwyz

1 plus more month to go?

2011-04-11T11:09:00.000-07:00

yeah its been super super long since i last update wooo..... life still goes goes on everyday haha... Its been 7 month n yes i have been waiting for this 2 more month to go a new life will be brought in this world or mayb 1 month plus? No one knows =) hummps... Life being w a another half is much more diff compare w a single hood life... Lots of thing u hav to think n make decision alone hais... living w mother in law is much more diffcult tat i tot too... Mayb after when i give birth to my baby boy its more diffcult to maintain our r/s? who know wad happen next? i seriously everyday imagine wad would itbe like after i give birth? everytime dreaming abt my baby is born currently hummps... I hope my delievy wnt be a diff one hope baby is healthy alt everytime i go 4 scanning doc said he is v heathy yet i still v worry mayb i shld said i think too much liao hummps... every nite seem to be a slpless nite for me as i couldnt slp at all even i didnt slp in after i still cant slp in de nite hais... stop here for now

its time

2010-07-14T15:35:00.000-07:00

hi its time back to back aga i had nv touch my blogger since 3 to 5 mths le but thing somehow goes not rite...

i had to said no matter wad i had gone thru its my fate to exprince all this up n down anyway i cant believe tat i can fall in love wid a guy once aga like tat time yet it end one day before our 1st months well i am still copping wid all the thing tgt

wrk had been v though no one can help me expect i ownself work it out a way i cant expected everyone to spoon feed me i hav to be indenpant now as i am old enough to thing hais lots of thing in my mind heart break in to many picese no one can utd i did wonder how i become like think its time to change to be a better person i hope i can still cope wid my current life now...

stress think abt rental n spence is not easy everything i ask myself use my own no one can help me only my self can depent on myself cause ppl come n goes... seriously i am super thing of everything in life XAVIER ONG JIA WEI u had successful tone my heart n ownself into many picese nice job...

i had tried many way to forget by doing wrk don think of him but its doesnt wrk i had try not to tok abt him its doesnt work wad can i do? i am really really tried to hold on acting i am ok le.. slpy thing stop here bye

long long ago wahaha

2010-05-09T12:30:00.000-07:00

wow... Its been very super long wen i last touch my blog... Hmms...

abt my life currently working at taiwandang mircobrewy @ demspy hill its a v nice place to go but its v ex too... but i love the pork rib pork knacle ect... super nice...

althrough i found it was fun to working at there daning enjoy the band ect yet i found something tat is v ugly in this company which i hate it leader bully ppl to gain the power of leader or superviors every thing turn ugly to me i saw how black hearted a women can be now den i relise all the thing tat they are doing is to sercure everything including their status in de company gosh...

All the old bird bully the new bird seriously i really hope everything can stop!!! Who can really help us? Who can we go to? wishing everything is jus a dream but its a reality!!! Haiz....

the true of the heart...

2010-03-14T20:55:00.000-07:00

ytd should be the day of our one month anni will he still rmb will he still care? if tat day all thing nv happen will it turn up like this baby really sorry i really hope u will be back... but i noe its really is impossible for tat... but i am change... i really change le is not because u wan me change is i really wan to change..

really v xin ku now... most of de dream are all abt u everytime cant slp well cant eat well who can help me? dreaming of our sweet time de time we still tgt or something tat is related to it i really v scared who can help me really really scared... everyday i have to be ok to go work happy play around but who will noe? i am really really scared to loose u who will really noe?

God i really v tried really v v tried... i am gng to be crazy soon... most of the time wad make me wake up is de reson of he not here wid me anymore n i will be awake at time i ask myself is this wad i really wan? chasing a r/s tat is gone i donnoe i jus wan him be by my side even we r still fren i am still happy God i really love him alot pls pls don take him away i really wan him God i really nid ur stength to move on to change to become a better person i am half way thru le i nid ur strength to carry on... God i thnk you i pray in ur almighty name AMEN!!!

to this day i relise to be true...

2010-03-10T20:33:00.000-08:00

Every thing has expoled all the emotion i trying to hide tat i tot its was gone yet it come back aga...

yesterday counselling session was v furitful in deed i cried n cired in tat session... saying all the thing i trying to hide out of it i finally i had found peace in my heart... somehow i found i am myself finally being true to myself... Finally i had take off the marks tat i put on... Thing i trying to hide cause i am scared no one will accpet me wen they noe i am scared to letting ppl noe my true self living wid regret living wid guild living wid unforgivness

i am really tried i wan to forgive n putting all thing behind move forward to my new day =) i have to jia you thnx joy for forgiving me alt i alwys ps u or come late u still love me thnx for sharing de vers wid me i'l alwyz rmb in heart matt 12:43-45

TO BE TRUE TO YOURSELF AND OTHER, OTHER WILL BE TRUE TO YOU
TO LOVE YOURSELF PEOPLE WILL LOVE YOU MORE!! JIA YOU!! DONT BE AFFRID OF PEOPLE WONT ACCPT U =)

break up

2010-03-02T20:27:00.000-08:00

everything has turn in to an end.. the story of my r/s wid claude tan n r/s wid my er sao n frens y

1) aga i lie to them in order to keep them wid me
2) i told him abt the past he really hate me alot now
3) infront of ppl i am putting a mask only to my counsellor i no need to act as i am strong

claude i am sorry i noe i have let u down in de 1st place i shouldnt have started this r/s wid u baby... just wan to rest from all this i really hope tat the 1 yr promise is still there... i noe u wouldnt wan to forgive n forget abt it but still i hope u will forgive baby i hope u will c this i will wan u to noe i really love u alot i wanna be wid u for my whole life i really wanna to settler down i don wan to in out of r/s anymore cause of u i can c my futrue i wanna love u more n more...

they one yr promise i have prayed and let GOd decided if he still not the one i will move on till i found de one tat really will loving me... mean while i will wait n change my charater 1st from now on i will not say i don care anymore i wont lie if can i will choose not to say anything.. self control this will be my goal of changging another one is i wan to go back study study study...this will be my goal for this year!!!

a new yr a new being

2010-02-17T10:09:00.000-08:00

talk to claude jus nw on de phone for 2 hrs... But i get wad the point he is talking about.. I once was lost hopping for direction for a vision from GOD i think he ans... All i can is change n change n change... Putting in effort n more effort.. this will be tought...cant give up le mus finally wake up in my dreams... But i really hope someone will encourage me n make me move on to the next level..

refecting on myself I am living on this earth for gng to 22 yrs yet i haven see myself grow up... Wad hav i done in all this while? nth slacking n slacking n slacking... play play n PLAY!! tats enough of all this!! baby u r rite i cant always slack n doin nothing n this is not the thing i wan I wan to work i wan to really found a job tat really let me save n earn some income mayb i should go for F&B cause easily to past time no time to slack...

trying in sentosa n many ways out there to look for a stable job.. baby i hope u will be there to guide me n also God i hope tat God will alwyz in the cental of my life... so i can process... i must change lazyness no more i nid to change in this area so i will be self control fruit of de spirit...

i hope ppl will surpport me behide to encourge me wen i felt really wan to give up to hold on my convition to my furture.. I will try hard enough to change to c have a break through so ppl please i need ur surpport especially GOD n baby u i really nid ur all surpport me to move on in my life...

dear father i pray in ur name tat i hope the convition wont lost in the furture run... GOD i pray i will be substain in thing i convited in and i will try my best to do all i can n the rest i will leave it to You to help me encourage me n to comfront n give me rest God i give thanks in advance in Jesus name i pray AMEN!!

yeah...

2010-02-10T21:37:00.000-08:00

Final decision? donnoe i hav alot to clear up!!

1st emotion toward past relationship... but seriously im happy to c michael leading a happy life wid his current gf so gd...hahas..

2nd getting over n putting down jason n move forward to my new life =) letting go of him n letting go of my past =)

3rd working toward my goal== start to earn n save n study study study

love....

2010-01-17T20:56:00.000-08:00

today is my sec wk of work... buble tea fun yet i still miss him alot... wad can i do to mamu myself not thinking of him? i was hope he will be back to me... sorry wally i couldnt forget him i noe is v unfair for u to be his replacement yet i can forget him yet... i really wish tat time i shldnt choose him instead mayb we till now mayb we r still best fren after all....

baby jason will u still care for me? i really hope to c u aga baby... i hate myself y i cant stay wid u? i really really love u alot.. till i really cant see myself but u wont noe.. cause u wont care anymore.. baby its 2 wk plus i didnt c u i really miss u really hope to mit u aga...

i couldnt believe this is the ending y u have to leave me alone in this dark world i cnt c any of the light i hate to be like this.... I WANT TO CHANGE!!! I WANT TO CHANGE!! let go of u is so diffcult

14 AUG 2009

2010-01-14T00:23:00.000-08:00

the 5th month alrdy time really fly bt today is 5th month yet he no feeling... i really miss him jason chua this few month we tgt was my whole life zui mei de hui yi... memorise r meant to keep but to much memorise keep hurting me... baby where r u now? i really miss u i want u i nid u to support me to move on i nid u!!!....

w/o u i am totally lost in my own world couldnt slp couldnt eat now i am jus like inside a maze there is no way out no direction i am lost in this gaint maze who can guide me? only God can guide me out of this place as long i listen to his word i will get out of this maze... God please guide me i surrender all day to u guide me guide my heart God!!! heal my wound Lord heal the ppl ard me to tat they will come out of this maze thnx i give thanks in advance amen!!

(口白)望着窗外的微微雨想不到来了温哥华的每一天会是这么冷,这么灰到达的整个星期里雨一直没有停过而我每一个深宵的眼泪都是要等到快天亮的时候才流完流干反正,我在这里也是百无聊赖一睡到中午,时日反而还好过一点.还记得我们以前在图书馆一起读书的时候你试过很无聊的卷着一个纸筒放在我耳边说了一句:"我爱你"我问你为什么这样的鬼祟你说:难道要大声的喊吗?我心想,如果你会这样做我就会跟你一辈子我好累好肿的一双眼睛临闭上前见到每天无聊的卷起每一个每一个不同颜色的纸筒堆满在我房间的墙角静静的显得很失落想不到,我跟你费劲心神一点一滴累计起来的感情到了这一刻就只有一份想你的孤寂从你走后细雨不停听着雨声夜夜醒到天明眼角流出无言的泪是回忆在胸口偷哭泣痛过想过慢慢看清外表平静是骗你骗自己用微笑送你还答应把祝福给你忘了问谁收留我的心当你为了我和他而犹豫我不该只等待你做决定如果任性那么一次把你抱紧也许不会失去你oh! oh! oh!想你想得好孤寂我想你想得好痛心向天大声喊爱你恨我说出口的不到爱的万分之一到如今还能说给谁听 oh! oh! oh!想你想得好孤寂我想你想得好痛心向着远方喊爱你深深爱一个人根本不该苦苦压抑一点迟疑一生的悲凄(口白)记得在离开的哪天天才开始下雨在机场,有两个我很爱的男人当我看见你的时候我给了一个我卷的纸筒你你默默收起微笑说会留为纪念我还没有失望的在等因为我知道,你是一向是一个很理智的男人直到我进禁区的哪一刻生活零乱漫无头绪想要遗忘分秒也不行不敢面对狂乱那个自己又不能回到平静的过去当你为了我和他而犹豫我不该只等待你做决定如果任性那么一次把你抱紧也许不会失去你oh! oh! oh!想你想得好孤寂我想你想得好痛心向天大声喊爱你恨我说出口的不到爱的万分之一到如今还能说给谁听 oh! oh! oh!想你想得好孤寂我想你想得好痛心向着远方喊爱你深深爱一个人根本不该苦苦压抑一点迟疑一生的悲凄想你想得好孤寂我想你想得好痛心向天大声喊爱你恨我说出口的不到爱的万分之一到如今还能说给谁听 oh! oh! oh!想你想得好孤寂我想你想得好痛心向着远方喊爱你深深爱一个人根本不该苦苦压抑一点迟疑一生的悲凄(口白)我迟迟不步进禁区因为我纵然还在等而你很冷静的祝福我跟着一只男人的手拍了拍我的肩膀我又只有转身忍泪离去其实我在等我自己最后的抉择我在等你就算你不出声只要你很简单的捉住我一只手指我就会不顾任性决定留下今天我另一个最爱的男人将一件毛衣披我在肩膀轻轻的拥抱着我问我是否不舍得我问我父亲如果当天我决定不跟他移民到这里他会怎么样?我父亲回答我说一切由我决定我知道今后我是没有办法可以忘记你我只有决定在我心里面留一个角落永远收藏这一份——想你的孤寂

days w/o him

2010-01-04T06:44:00.000-08:00

tday is the 5th w/o in my life couldnt really over come i really miss him alot... but due to the thing i did in the past four mth think he wont wn to contact me anymore...

i really love i really care wad is he thinking abt? where would i be? bebe i really miss u but i noe u wont wn to tok to me anymore as ur action show alot i only can ask one thing from u is to forgive n we can be frenz i really hope to c u to hear ur voice to noe tat u still care as a fren or a bro to me... please don leave me alone n nv reply me its really hurt alot...

y would u b so heartless i jus wn a msg to show u still care... bebe r we still fren? will we b fren ever? God HELP ME!! MY HEART IS SOOO PAINFUL UNTIL I COULDNT BREATH!!! HOPE TO CHANGE!!!

new yr goal for this yr will be alwyz tell the truth no more lies**
surrender my life fully**
let go of the past**
isa 43:18-21

YOU by ten 2 five

2009-12-13T09:30:00.001-08:00

You did it again
You did hurt my heart
I don't know how many times
You... I don't know what to say
You've made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down
You said you'd never lie again
You said this time would be so right
But then I found you were lying there by her side
REFF:
You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep,
I just can reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore myheart
Now it's only pieces
Nothing left but pieces of you

You frustated me with this love
I've been trying to understand You know i'm trying i'm trying
You.. I don't know what to say
You've made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down

YOU by ten 2 five

2009-12-13T09:30:00.000-08:00

a lyrics?

2009-11-18T07:45:00.000-08:00

请不要分了以后还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於
我默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以后还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於
我默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开
我请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过亲吻过
你的脆弱其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流我怕说不出口
原谅我没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我爱原来要舍得

我难过我才懂

lol

2009-08-03T20:26:00.000-07:00

feeling rather confuss hmms...
wad should i do?
where should i go?
wad is really purpose of this life?
who am i really?
hmms....
rather being alone...
no i cant!
no matter in time of trouble
ther is alwyz ppl ard me...
wanna cry
wanna shout!
wanna jus let it out of me
the pain n anged...
just wanna release it all out...
NO I CANT!
ppl r always ard me..
i cant cry infront of them..
they r my beloved ones...
i don wn them to worry!
i jus wanna be alone...

party time!!!

2009-07-15T18:53:00.000-07:00

yeah!! wahahaha few wk ago went to st jame wah!! so nice.... 3 cup wid one jar of drink r free!!! i love it man!!! dance like siao wahaha... j/k stay there till 4 wid wally jiejie n korkor wen off early..

funniest thing is the part i b4 off wrk... my ssupervies keep saying me lol...teaste me here n there lol.... but he make my job more fun wahahaha...love to wrk wid him!!...after the st james wen cab home... cause i totally KO haha... GG...

2 wk ltr went to wally huse to drink this time gt me, angel, korkor, er jie, alex n our dearest bro tim haha!!...drink till drunk..lol.. haha here r de pic...

me n alex...

wiskey n white lable

white lable

red wine...

all the drink ...

wen i drunk....

try to act cute...

lol

family... where is alex n david?

hmmms....

a kiss for angel wahaha...

lol...

try to kiss? lol

lol

2009-07-14T07:02:00.000-07:00

ppl tat dn really care...
wad is de use of being a nice gal?
to let ppl climb on e head n shit?
fo u bastrd
no use of truly lov a person
i jus wanna be alone....

jus lyrics

2009-07-11T13:36:00.000-07:00

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart to broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart to broken
Do I cry too muchAm I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harderW
hy do you see right through me
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart to broken
Do I cry too muchAm I too outspoken
Don't I make you laughShould I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
Why do you see
Why do you see
Why do you see right through me
Why do you see
Why do you see
Why do you see right through me
Why do you seeWhy do you see
Why do you see right through me
Why do you see
Why do you see
Why do you see right through me

alone?

2009-07-11T12:01:00.000-07:00

jus wanna say...
love some1 is so hurtful n tried...
wanna cry yet i cnt
being happy outside bt wasnt happy at all
wad cn i do to forget?
let time heal the wound...?
jus wanna be ALONE!!

no one els knows...

2009-06-17T12:37:00.000-07:00

Lyrics | No One Else Knows lyrics

listen to this song make me drawn back to god aga repent i didnt really fast alt i noe i suppose to i believe jol noe she will be sad sorry jol i make u disspointed i don think i am fit to be ur sheep... i am worse... sorry jol...i not doing well too alt i seems to grow well there in adult bt i just felt like i not a believer.. i broke in tears... i fail to bring lionel back i fail to give kor advice all the thing i do i fail it all as i noe i didnt surrder to god yet i am using my own strenght to walk through this path...

everything i fail is cause i didnt let god do the work in me? jus wanna have break!! tried of all this family frenz myself i hate it i cant be hard hearted toward everybody alt ppl take me for granted bt i still will help them when they r in danger yes i hav the burden for ppl but wad is the use? i cant event do anything to help!!!! am so useless i cant bring anyone to god!! no use!! useless dump!! unworthy to be lov by anyone n every one!!!hate it!!!haiz....

lol

2009-06-17T09:38:00.000-07:00

feeling wried now donnoe how mmm.... adult life is super boring!!! everybody is bz who can i find? haiz... staying at jie house i felt so ps... but if i go back to my house i will be worry abt her... mon working half way uncle call asked me go home!! i thinking of going home too i miss my mummy bed... n i also miss my kor... alt he is bad to me but he still my beloved kor kor...

i love them no matter wad!!! i pray for break thru in r/s wid korkor its reall hurt to see them like tat... my own house is not competed since papa pass away!!! korkor n me r/s off is cause of TAT BITCH his 1st gf... he away for two years for is the use of doing all the thing now? hurt is alrdy hurt alt the wound is heal it wont be the same like last time any more!!! i jus donwan to rmb the darkness of my life.. can i forget? the time w/o kor everything change i also change... ppl saying me like a baby yes i admit i am a baby since my papa has one but wad is the use now?

regret it too late.. he wont come back anymore!!! papa korkor i miss u all!!! ppl say i am childish yes i am cause i being pamper since young till now!! haiz... not reading bible this few months i felt giddy but i donnoe y i touch the bible i will fall aslp rather shld i forcus myself to dicipine? last sat svc was really for me alot of thing speak to me... just wanna be strong in christ n emotion!!!

could this be love?

2009-06-08T04:15:00.000-07:00

Woke up this morning,
just sat in my bed
8am first thing in my head
is a certain someone who's always on my mind
he treats me like a lady,
in everywayhis smile warms me throughout the day
should i tell him 'i love you'?
wish i knew what to say

Could this be love that I feel,
So strong, so deep and so real,
If I lost you would I ever heal,

Could this be love that I feel? (2)
The way he looks, So deep in my eyes,
Our hearts are so warm,
I just wanna cry,
Then he's so hardworking,
He wants to be someone.
Should I tell him that I love you,
What if he doesn't say it too,
I'm getting so nervous,
What should I do

Could this be love that I feel,
So strong, so deep and so real,
If I lost you would I ever heal,
Could this be love that I feel? (2)
Will it be my turn,
Two hearts beating together as one,
No more loneliness,
Only love, laughter and fun

Could this be love that I feel,
So strong, so deep and so real,
If I lost you,
would I ever heal,
Could this be love that I feel? (2)
Could this be love that I feel?...

this few week been listen to this song some how is song speak my feeling... i donnoe i wanna loose my mamorise...i wanna loose my forcus so tat at least i can forget ... shit i am crazy!!!!!!!!!!

lol

2009-05-30T11:45:00.000-07:00

this one week cn say is sad also cn say is happy...

just say the happy part...

16may bday celebration

my this yr bday was unforgetable it will be in my heart forever... tat day wen for svc late.. but over all the servic e was ok... after tat went to fetch my fren go den wen to eat at ps den mtg the rest of e gal ard 10 at ps busstop tat was the time am lost but we still end up in smu den waiting for the rest of e guy come.. went to brought drink den go back saw kaisze wen i back haha.. she pass me my bday card...

the time gng to strt terry reach... so wen to fetch him wid kor kor david, kor kor was pei-ing me all e way finally the programe strt 1st was intro after tat was game den the sabo-ing strt they call me go out of my sit n stand in e middler ask me to sing bday song but i drag along kaisze after tat jol came n she was e 1st one to affrim me afterjol was kenneth den kel n kibry sing" dong ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui" angel, sk, jess sing" peng you" kel n yaoming sing " fen xiang" was touch by their action n was shock tat yaoming will present a song to me cause i alrdy noe angel they all n kel n kibry will be singing haha... y? cause kibry told me lor... but was surprise wen yao ming was invole also lol....

but after all am being touch by their hard work... THANK YOU!! the time we spent tgt will nv be replace... I LOVE U ALL DIANS will miss these day de....

i watched the nite at the musume 2 alrdy wid kaylne wahahaha... the show was super funny shld watch it went u feeling down sure will make ur day... cause i laugh like crazy women wahaha super funny...

yeah after movie went walk walk den go home... i wonder this kind of time will it last long? mmm....anw finally make cards for these who had impacted in my life ...=) and these who really i love n care y? cause they r really the most perious bro n sis esp my shpd jol, kennth n some other bro n sis w/o them i don think i will still be in hope severing god... THANK YOU!!!

sat

went to new york new york to eat eat the ribs so big till almos full plus cocke flaot damm big plus the desert super sinful wahaha... but eat til super ful wahaha... but we are late for svc haha... saw yuki in svc so happy to c her =) hee.. after every thing went to eat den wen to mt the rest of the di ppl...went to ps aga wid angel while waiting me n yuki was damm crazy keep laughing after tat wen esplande den wen home

sunday

1st service b ut wake up at 10am slp at 4am plus... haiz... at 1st was feeling kind of wreid... kind of left out de feeling donnoe y mm.. mayb almost of them r getting marry ba donnoe haiz... anw the sermond was gd is abt repentnce...after svc went to merdian eat aga... tot of nt eating bt my cl keep wanting to give m e money to eat haiz bo bian hav to eat.... after eating we intro ourself den making card for fun manage to make a bday card for angel hope she like it cause its really nt easy to make cause it took alot of time to make it... but while making card i was thinking of the di ppl the laughter n the time we spend...

long long ago wahahaha...!!!!

2009-05-27T00:45:00.000-07:00

yo back to blog yeah... sorry for soo longg never blog cause com spoil sad...

nearly one month didnt update as

1st com spoil

2nd kor don let me use his com

3rd lazy to blog lol wahaha...

er.... donnoe wad to blog about think...think...think...hm.. hmmm....

think blog abt my growth...yeah...

was not doing well till the time i told joleen abt somethings.... althrough she didnt say anything to tat but i noe tat she had nothing to say anymore cause she had tell me alot of time n yet i didnt listen... sorry joleen i noe i not a good sheep... i not a good shpd too.. as i didnt meet kethrine for super long time... but i really hope she is still doing well through we didnt meet up...

now den i relise i forcus on my meimei myself n other ppl rather den i forcus on my sheep kat... now she is bz doing her thing too... donnoe wad to say anymore... as i told her alot of time saying sat please come for service but yet she didnt come if i don cal her.. i cant even leave her alone how am i gng to let go her to the nyp ppl?

i donnoe now WHO CAN TELL ME!!! she has been mia for months....trying to pull her back yet i now working n she is working n studying donnoe how to help.... haiz.... donnoe how to pull her back now!!... sianz... haiz... i shldnt give up! i shldnt! i cant just give up jus like tat...GOD HELP ME!!! now i lost her no le sian donnoe who gt er... i donwan to ask frm tat idodit haiz....but i have to...haiz... sianz...

anyway 16may was the real celebration of my bday...21 yrs old le...!!! yeah!!! but everything was in the mass... as in at 1st david kor was late sian... so go find meimei jia yi den bring her to foodcourt to meet the rest after eating dinner rush down to mrt station fetch korkor meet the rest at bus stop... after tat when ahead to smu for the celebration...bus the gal wen ahead 1st den wait for the guys grp sian..but i didnt noe wad happen at all but when i was away to brought drink the ppl was spilt in to two group..

the programe gng to strt frenz call saying he reach le wah need to drag till 10 plus at strt 1st of the progame is intro den games den after tat was bday song...jul sabo me lol asked me to song alone sian diao in the end drag kaisze along to sing wid me wahaha... nxt jol came angel has been keep reminding me of jol haven come lol bt jol came wid some of her grp ppl lol... felt so werid cause only invited these ppl tat is close...

jol was the 1st person to affrim me felt normal 1st time ppl affrim me didnt cry... after tat was song persentation

1st was kel n kibry- dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui

2nd was angel, jess n sk- peng you

3rd was yao ming n kel- fen xiang

was really touch by them the song too wanted to cry but was controling myself not to cry... the mamorise of them will be alwyz in my heart...

thanks angel, yaoming, sk, jess, kel, kibry thnx for the song n time i really touch....=)

this will be my last mamory in di ... my bday celebration....

surrdender...

2009-05-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

yes its me aga bloging here lol... toking rubbish wahaha... of cause its me cause this is my blog =)..

god's so real nw until i cnt even hide a single thing to him lol.. cause he watches my every single action n he hear every single prayer tat i hav made... alt nw all the doubt r clear but there is still one thing i cant overcome...

i cried whole day on sat... i am so helpless till i donnoe when i will break dwn working was so tried.. but my manager he giv me beark frm 2- 3 bt before 3 mus cme back to wrk.. so i wen to trumpet praise to looking at the bk there after nt long went outside ps to slack listen to worship while sms-ing shpd = jol haha but i cried while worship... ard 2.45 wen back to wrk til 4 plus my manager let me off wrk...

am so tried till i told jas to hit me when i fall aslp but thru out the svc i cried n cried haha... b4 svc i cried cause of some thing els jol rebuke me cos of other i kanna scold bt nvm...=) jol was asking me wad abt u den? i told her abit as svc was gng to strt... worship 1st song i was damm tried almos fall aslp but sec i strted to cried aga..

being touch by god... all the thing come in one shot till i donnoe hw to react haiz... the svc was specially make for me.. this is wad jol told me after svc she told me wad god had told her last last wk... god told her tat i hav been lookin way to come close to god bt one thing tat make him cnt closer to me was i nv surrunder my life fully to god...

svc one point tat speak to me alot tat is the sec point we must noe wad r the devil plan the speaker say tat ..

there was a bro wen god bless him he say god r good but wen pro he say god r not really good it's make me think tat it sound so femilar i wonder am i the same as the bro?...

mm... another one is the one abt our thinking... our mind 95% of the tot is repeated wen u think of neg ur mind will b neg but ur mind is postive ur thinking will b all the postive tot so i mus noe hw to change my mind to godly mindset...

omg its late for wrk gtg le bb will update soon...

refreashment

2009-04-26T21:09:00.000-07:00

up n down r the of christians n ppl also... wad make us diff is we hav god in our life...

sat is the time of refreshment... i didn t wn to go for service but in the end i went. ppl may not noe but i noe n god noes wad happen to me in this yr but god is there watching me eac h n every single action tat u did everyday cause he is jus beside us n watching us.. sat svc was great once aga being touch...

rom 8 i love the vers is rom8:35-39

35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."[l] 37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[m] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord

this few vers speak to me alot i esp vers 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered

as this vers speak to me as i facing persecution from family after so long its been 2 yr puls tat i come to god n yet till now this happen... wondering wad is happening... think jol noes noes wad happen as she said tat as she prayed for herself during worship god direct her to pray for me wow... god is real! amen! celebrated jul bday n wen to ton wid her n angel n sk jess wen her fren huse to slp

me and angel ton till 6 plus den jul wake up by her mama den wen to playgound continue our conversion til 7 or 8 eat breadfast wen back jul hues till 3 plus like tat i think wen to city hall saw kalyne tok to her wen to esplane top there slack till 7 plus den wen to eat den went to walk den home took train wid angel...

meditation?

2009-04-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

HI haha... lets c wad can i blog..hm... er...lols..

lets tok abt the last wk x2 outing =) its really fun got alot time spending tgt =) after the mtg wen to eat wid kel yao ming n kibry at the market kel wasnt feeling well so he wen home kibry need to go home so left wid me n yao ming walk ard the sentosa alt we not suppose gng tgt but our movtie was jus wanting to relax at the breach tat all...went to walk ard the beach n rest till 10 plus 11 took bus wid yaoming along this trip we have been talking abt church n stuff wahaha... i felt so loved as yao ming told me the thing i need to grow in but nth happen between us =) really thnks god for tat =)...

wed

was v sick today took 966 to eunos to mt yvnnoe bring her go jacob place reach there ard 5 plus i was wondering could i survive till cg ends? anw reach jacob huse ard 6 plus couldnt tahan den ask yaoming help me lead praise gt to ply pool wid yaoming for awhile den jem play wid me not long falling aslp...

cg end ard 8 cause only have "prayer mtg" we stay at there till 10 took bus wid yvnnoe n yao ming reach bugis donwan to go home wid a emotional heart so we tok have fellowship wid yao ming till 12 really thanks god tat he rebuild if not till now i think i wont noe wad is my bind spot r as i tot i not tat emotional anymore but i am wrng...

today...

yes meet jol for shpd-ing yeah.... i felt so joyful to as my frenz sms has brighten my day...yeah as she send me a question n surppose to b a joke but its not funny at all as she chated wid me thru sms she told me she wanted to go for svc yeah ya hoo.... but still not comfrim yet i believe god will has his own plan...

mt jol 4 shpding.. is time to learn n be teach by god's wrds..=) today teaching is super long gt abt 12 point i think but wad make me rmb is point 1 n 6 n7

1 we gt to repent everyday in order to walk rite god aga

grad nite

2009-04-01T19:34:00.000-07:00

grad nite was the most fun day this yr hee... still gt photo bt wid jeremy so dnnoe hw to t frm him also anw its ok...super tried... will update soon!..

random thot

2009-03-26T00:29:00.000-07:00

living in this family
its such a painful mamories
no one will care
no one will help..

went you nid help
jus shout n cry
e help will be given
is this the right way?

i am gng to be crazy
i am gng be insane
who will really care?

in this family
i have no right to say
i need help
i have no right
anymore...

nagetive thot
keep flesh my mind
what can i do?
i am jus too emotional

learning to apeath
in this reality
is so tough
its so pain
no one will know
no one will understand

living in this family
i hav no right
to say no
i have no right
to do wadever i like
i have no right

cause i am jobless
cause i am useless
looking in the mirrorr
i ask myself
wad have i been doing?

in this wrld
full of negative thot
who can really prevent it?

i can only say..
GOD I NEED YOU!!!

thinking thru some of the incident i have come to a point ppl cnt be tursted fully cause human not prefect. only god tat is turst worthy its really a bleesing wid this god called jesus ppl r wandering hw cme we claim tat god is real

cause god is real y cause he will ans ur prayer one by one according to his own prefect timing in john 3:16 its say
for god so loved the world that he send his one and only son to die on the cross to pay for our sin
matt 7:7
ask you will recieved, seek and you will find me, knock on the door n the door will be open

no matter wad i will alwyz worship one god n tat is jesus....!! amen!!

could u believe it wahahaha...

2009-03-24T19:11:00.000-07:00

in the middle of nite i broke dwn in tears
who is goin to concern abt me?
all the love care n concern
is jus so surface..

its just seem so fake
i couldnt help
i couldnt control
i couldnt take it anymore
in the drakness side of me
its a real me?

i couldnt know
wad is goin on
i couldnt see
wad wrong wid me
who can it be?

i felt so hurt
in this lonely world
this realtiy make me cried.

no one will really care
why am i become like this
in my family
there is no more love

there is no more
care and concern
i wish i could
turn back the clock
where there is still
love n concern in this family

no ones noes
wad is happening
no one noes
how i felt in deep..

wad happen to me?
i hate myself
i hate to be in this world
i hate to be in this family now
i hate to be so soft heated

no one will noes
wad is behide my smile.
these wrds tat ppl give
is jus like a knife cuttin thru me
my heart is alrdy shutter into pieces
who really care?
ther only one person tat really care

and that is GOD
he comfornt me
he heal my broken heart
he hear my cried
he hear my every pray
he ans it one by one
he forgive my sin
he protected me frm e evil ones
he send his ppl to care n protected me
he love me for who am i

wad more can i ask? there is no more thing i can ask...

CAMP!!!

2009-03-22T21:22:00.000-07:00

wahaha yeah come back to blog ...

in this camp alot of ppl r sick man wahaha... me also sick in the sec day of camp!! over all its really enjoyable camp!! alt some ppl dn noe hw to zi dong wahaha.. u noe who i refering.. i am refering to a bro.

thus

went out wid terry to pei him as i promisesd him to pei him b4 i go camp lol..as i ps him alot of time. i met him den go broght my things hee.. while waiting for jas i wen to eat, wen to ate foodcourt v long nv go there eat le! hee.. ntlong jas sms me say ing she wen to eat 1st lol... wen she reach i haven ate fishin so asked her wait 4 me...

wen tojas huse to stay over nite nxt day go tgt wid her n sheryln 12 plus wen slp bt culdnt slp well as her bed gt thing bit me n i cnt slp cause whole body itchy n gt block nose den 6 plus wake up 7 plus wen out to met sheryln den wen to met e rest 4 breakfast ard 9 plus cos still gt time so wen to slp til 12pm .

12pm prayer meet den . lunch den all den ppl dnnoe go where so we ate wid liyan hee... alt is v hot bt its still fun.1st day nite i myself is quite refresh p & w time den teaching 1 yeah...after teaching ate something n wen bath cause v sticky n hot after tat wen to slp at 1 plus

day 2

wake up abt 6.30 wash up n strt wen out for exvotion den is breafast den games half thru i felt so sick gt head ached n stuff so wen to rest wid angel hee.. kel saw sry kel didnt respon to u as i felt v sick i will like tat. kaisze nt long cme n take care of me thnx kaisze i felt so loved by u all.. =) angel helped me to take my water.. n i felt abit ok after kaisze pray 4 me den wen to room n bath den tok to sheryln as she wake up hee.. nt long sheryln wen hm.

denout to eat dinner den do usher duty but i my head was super pain she as for medi frm hui mei i ate n do my duty wen worship i felt i felt v giddy so wen to sit for awhile bt yaoming saw me so he ask me to went out n asked ace to pei me n ace asked me to rest in our roon. slp until everyone back n ton til 5 plus.

day3
wake up at 7.30 for exvotion den ate breafest den teaching den workshop den lunch den area cleaning den star award n den poto waiting of bus den wen in bus seated wid jol n wid had a heart to heart tok alt is only 10 min but i felt so loved n i felt i have grow up yeah... wahaha.. wen bus reach wen to kfc eat den home wid victor n ting feng haha..

here r some pic tat i took..

febie in the morning- jas hamer

ting ting gift...

back of the gift

me n jol

my ex shpd jas n me =)

jm is taking more den one photo omg..

emily and me!!

sheep carry shpd..

ck, emily and ...

taken this w/o her notice

me n jas aga

taken wen they having tok wahaha

jas packing her pack

taken w/o sharyln notice

me n kalyne on sec day

us me n 2 meimei..

angel confess her love to her shpd omg is so sweet

angel act cute haha...

eh??

me n angel third day

me n nazeere

me n kaisze

me n kiby

me n ruth

me n reb

me n yao ming

shpd n me aga

mei hua yao ming ace nel n jol

me n liyan

ck n me

me n shareen..

me n qiu lian bian mei haha

jol meihua ace nel

kib n ck

some of e DI ppl

jm n me

me n yan qing

joella n me.. wher am i lookin?

ur love pour out upon me...

2009-03-10T04:17:00.000-07:00

Psalm 23:4-6

Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.AMEN!

once aga i wanted to thnx god for ace for her willingness to listen to use thou she is a bz women =) ytd got blessing =) .. n i think is because i given the best offering ever n god bless me wid 250 cum 50 frm my ex bf is in deep god nv ever short change us!! amen!! as i decided to giv my best to god he bless me wid a job alt the pay is not high but i am happy!!! hehe...

this vers is the vers tat love the most... god use ur rod n stuff to comfornt n protact me...i nid ur protaction...god i love u... father please take my hand walk wid me...

2009-03-08T13:31:00.000-07:00

sat..
yeah! back to blog... love to be hold haha... today svc i felt god presence once aga.. the song n sermond speak to me...i felt so refresh once aga... but i felt soo werid n i felt tat left alone...saw hong koon n another sis donnoe who haha.. haha.. felt alone as i donnoe really tok to huiling they all n my grp nt wid me.. i kanna of lost too...

i hope tat i can be used to it ba... alt i am use to it where by my grp alwyz ps me lolx.. but now is diff... i donnoe but.... haix... anw i didnt really care much abt it... tday is the day my tear keep falling ...i felt left out n stuff but i donnoe hw to say or wad to do.. anw i am ok over all... finally i m at ease of the camp i gng to attdent as i m quite stress abt it...

kanna set? y? lolx... cause yesterday didnt go n they said tat u today no nid to cme anymore as i was late for wrk tday... diaox... reach home alrdy 12 plus 1 how to slp lol...somemore felt damm sick jus now...anyway its not worth to wrk there anymore cause is jus like 1hr $4 n its damm far frm my hse lol...

busfare alrdy 1/8 gone let say i earn one day $32 i can gt only 300 or 400 dollor per month n also haven count the money i need to use 300 pay bil 100 busfare (incase) n i no nid pay e camp money le lorx siann also mus deduct my cpf is really not enough for me.. oh god help me!! arghh!!

i hope to wrk near my hse at least i can save sme of my busfare...n sme money to pay frenz n things i nid to pay...i really hope i can work at these place tat gt nite shift atleast i every time wont slp at night ...but where can i find? lol...

job job job!!! I WANT A JOB!!!

thnks giving to u'll

2009-03-04T09:31:00.000-08:00

yeah back to blog sorry for last few week was quite emo....

yes! i got a job hahax.. oops i am over joy... hahax....

1st must thnks ace for comfront me tat no matter wad i still cn come to her n tell my pro to her thnx ace... for spending time to listen to me on tat sat nite...

2nd person i wan to thnks is jol hehe.. jol thnx for investing ur time in me tat i am looking forward in the future... n thnx for pei me to find job u're my lucky star...

3rd kenneth hey ken i really really thnx god tat u really show care for me in my spiriture walk tat i can see tat god has bless me wid ppl tat is loving n caring... n u will alwyz b there in the rite timing i seriously i donnoe y but went i am dwn u alwys there to encourage me up thnx...

4th xiuzhen.. hey xiuzhen i really thnx god tat u really invest ur time n energy in us tat u give up ur time for god's kingdom i really pray tat u'll be stronger n stronger in god wrd...
5th kelvin-hey bro i really thnx god tat u r there went i n steven quarrel n u take up the changlle to take steven to ur grp i really thnx god for all the thing u do wen i hav no where to go u alwyz will ask me to join ur grp wen my cg wen some other n left me alone u will ask me to join u'll 4 fellowship n really encourage me to be connet to my grp =)

today is the last day of DIA1 i think... nxt wk i will b move to grad grp tgt wid the rest of the ppl... i really hope tat i can grow well went i move on in this 1 yr plus in this church wad hav i done so far? creating pro after pro.. slacking ard donwan to obey leader... donwan to bring ppl come, don wan to listen to leader... hahax... this all is wad i have been doing...

thinking wad i have done in di i dn think i hav impact a person life b4yes may nt in DI but sme hw i hope in adult i will be growing to a muture young women i really wan to make a diff wen i move to adult i really pray tat i wont so childish playful but obenient muture loving slow at angred rich in mercy...

there r the list i hope to grow in...
obey my leader n support them.
be salt n light in my work place
be salt n light in my hse
obey my mama n korkor
no more lazyiness
care for my family
spend time wid my family

reflect back on wad i had did its really really alot thing to list but i lazy to list dwn...hahax...yeah! jia you in wadever i do.... amen!

SAD!! KEEP ME IN PRAYER...

2009-02-27T02:13:00.000-08:00

haiz.. i think i am falling of sn... i nt doin well nw i couldnt see wad is the real direction for i couldnt see a clear vision i couldnt see wad is ahead of me...this feeling is super scary omg.. wad can i do really i am so helpless i so scared tat i will listen to my fren said n leave church... i dnwn to leave god i dn to... !!! but all the thing tat happen to me is beyond my limit i dnnoe hw long cn i stand frim in this convition in me i really donnoe

i dnwn the love of god to leave me cause i noe w/o god i would be dryin at the road i dn wn to leave this road u am walking god u promises tat went tourble cmes u will carry my walk wid me bt i couldnt see u where r u nw? i am so scared...i dn wn to leave u pls dn push me away i felt so drak there's no light in me rite nw i am burn out.... will this resting take long? pls take my hand n walk wid me in this drakness nite pls drawn me near to u... this my prayer...

ytd

2009-02-15T01:50:00.000-08:00

ytd was valentine day but i didnt spent time wid guys only hahax... yeah...

ytd i am serving aga b4 tat i went late for meeting cause of my stupid bro urghh "hai wo bei ma" stupid luhx... lol... ace asked me to pay half of the camp fee 1st but i totally no money so had no choice need to pay the 110 wan sian...wad to do who ask me cos of svc dn wn go the interview haix... my fren bluff me also saying cn pay me back e $200 but until nw no news frm e person...wad can i say?

i sme time think tat wad for gng wgere by u dn even have e money to pay if borrow frm others u need to pay n if xz noe she will gng to say me aga lol... god wad cn i really do!!!! xz keep reminding me of the camp fee but do she noe wad am i facing!!! do she really utd??? i mayb will be gng to jail i mayb need to face other ppl jugdment wad can i say!!! my life is totally a mess wad cn i say? do she noes wad really happen to me? i nw also dnnoe who am i, i dnnoe who am i really im lost my ownself? who this this gal who is typing here?i do alot of thing until i dn even noe who am i nw... nobody noes wad happen only god tat noe all e pain all these sorrow i hate myself i hate it!!!!

anw ytd svc was touch by the worship take all of me by hilsong is a really nice song i love the chours part

here r the lyrics
You broke the night like the sun
And healed my heart with Your great love
Any trouble I couldn't bear
You lifted me upon Your shoulders

Love that's stronger
Love that covers sin
And takes the weight of the world

I love You
All of my hope is in You
Jesus Christ take my life
Take all of me

You stand on mountain tops with me
With You i walk through the valleys
You gave Your only Son for me
Your grace is all I rely on

I love You so, and I give up my heart to say
I need You so, my everything

is a super nice song... after svc didnt have time to eat cos all the thing end at 8.45 so rush dwn to istana park for DI affrimation nite in e end guys grp was late i didnt noe james wn to affrim me i was shock bt ok la cos i tot he will choose joleen or jeremy ok after all this we gather as my own grp den share abt wad kind of guy we like half way yao ming called me saying wn affrim me lolx after all is 11 plus oh didnt gt to eat lol but brought double chess bugres to eat wen hm wid victor lol hahax...

hey

2009-02-06T12:06:00.000-08:00

today went to di unit cg aka pre vcg donnoe how to spell as it is... anyway i really enjoy every thing hehex... liyan did mantion abt give gift to a friend its really bring me back to my sec sch days..

every yr some of the class will me their own gift to sell for their cip yeah but every yr me kai ling n xue feng promises each other to give each other a gift as we r one of these who r single hehe.. hahax... its really bring back these mamorise tat i had wid them =)i still rmb one of these yrs kailing wen to my cls to pass me the gift on that day itself i felt nth alt but this is one of the mamorise between us =)

now we had lost contact with each other but still i pray tat she is doing fine =)its been really super long tat i didnt see her hahax... some time inside bus i will saw xue feng as she is gng out too to her fren hse to visit =) bur still rmb tat she alwyz come my hse to use com cause her hse no com n my hse is v near to my sec sch i really miss these days =)

anw after sharing an iteam tat we think is repersent love liyan had a short teaching for us after tat gt Q&S session den after tat we gt so call a mini celebration n we gt bless frm the nyp ppl cause they cook too many food n couldnt finish so yea gt free food to eat hahax.. after all alt my grp only three person came but i am still happy =)!! hehe...

cried in a distant

2009-02-05T07:04:00.000-08:00

this few week i have been not doing well reson is use of some fear inside of me.. mayb i think too much or wad but i really thnx god for kel they all.

cny eve i really thnx god tat i have a good time fellowship wif kel group.. i really agree tat i have to brond wif my grp n my shpd too instead of telling some of them tat i close wid yes i can share wid them bt the 1st one tat i shld dhare to is god n my shpd den mayb to these tat i close wid to keep watch on me...

really thnx god for kel n ken to keep me on rite tack i donnoe wad can it be w/o these ppl in my life to teach me to care for me as a sister.. wad can it be? sometime i do think tat if one day god is not in my life wad would it be like? will it been the same old me or things change?

looking frm the life frm some ppl tat backsided they lead a life tat is soo meaningless their mind only have negative tot looking at them some time i pray tat god would call them back aga to the rite tack.

everytime i think of turn away there is a voice telling me tat god still love n care for me went i felt tat no one can understand me turly but god is alwyz there to listen to me tat he pour out the love tat i don deseve he letting me to cried on his shoulder n hug me to comfront me like a father tat comfront his child

sometime i do pray tat god will hold my hand walk thru this path the path tat donnoe wad is ahead of me i do pray for ppl ard me like my brother n frenz tat haven noe him to join me one day i also do pray for my bro & sis tat we will grow more in christ. =)

hopping to recover frm all these hurt soon! anw ytd finally get to tell everything to my dear shpd joleen n i am quite happy kat want to comited to cg YEAH! jus her call n sms really wake me up but i not angry at all alt abit like wah liu keep waking me up but after i still happy to c her desire to grow! finally my sheep has grow up!

hahax.. oh ya back to topic ya i had told everything to my dear shpd! =) there is nothing tat hide inside me wed our shpding was special want is so call " our retreat with god" we don have teaching or sharing but we read bible n worship god tgt really happy as i went to her hse den worship tgt read bible tgt

after tat xz came i noe in between the worship she keep calling me but i n worshipping so didnt pick up luhx... we went to prata shop n hav a long long chat i hear a v sad news now i cried but i think no one noe ba haha.. or mayb jol noes haix... sometime we don treasure thing until we loss it or gng to loss it den we treasure n regret is tat really stupid?

seriously i admit at time i am stupid tat i dn really tresure ppl ard me! until i loss it den i regret anw wad for regret the time wont come back anymore! we still have to look forward n not look backward rite holding back is no use its wont come back like i keep holding back the past wid my father but there is no use of holding back cause my daddy wont come alive anymore alt i some time dream tat my daddy is still alive but i noe its jus only a dream it wont be true at times i really really wish tat all the dream cme true but its impossible cos he no longer alive...

i found this song by jj lin yeah my favour singer... 1st time saw his song is like worship hahax... yeah jj rock 4ever..

here are the lyrics

cried in a distant

Cries in a distance
Cant stop the tremble
Im just awaiting my turn

Hiding will never
Save me forever
The guns gonna get me for sure

Dear God I pray why wont you be my friend
Come to me and take my hand
Like mama would say
Everything will be okay

All I hear is 3 2 1
The scream from the guns
And then 1 by 1
No one gets to run
Someones dad or mom
Sister, brother and son
No no

All I feel is 1 2 3
My tears start to bleed
Smell of roses on my feet
I feel sore
I fall
I call
I crawl

yoz

2009-01-26T02:43:00.000-08:00

movie... haha...

yeah.... movie super funny love matter really funny but only some of them went to watch...before movie me n kel grp wen play pool hahax.. they all pay ..watch them play den gt play one match den rush to buy food pop corn n drinks... me n ck share the buddy combo yeah... i hav the money cause my mammy n uncle n cousin give us ang bo... totally i gt $30+

after movie was subble but smth wen wrng... after tat they was ok... wen to buy drink n followship but all i donnoe den v sianz... wen to riverside there walk walk sit ther chi chat wid kel grp lolx... thnx god for them too... ard 5 plus go home

haiz... thinking how am i suppose to gt the $95 for church camp fees... thinking shld i go? i hope tat can go... haiz... lets see wad happen nxt hahax...

this weeks....

2009-01-24T12:19:00.001-08:00

yoz coming to blog aga...past few week were up & dwns ...

currently spiriture unstable cause of something that hunting me that wont let me go
..wad is it abt all?...mmm... is not good to share.... haix... love is tough... i couldnt slp... wad can i do? lol...

anw gt lonel hp no back n david korkor... but hear that korkor change to another person... sad... anw ytd saw lionel gf lol someone still say she qiute chio but to me if she is chio in this world theres is no "chun nu le" any that not the point... through out everything i felt v super werid... at 1st the gf was ok but donnoe y later part the gf keep diao me like i own her 1 millon like tat wad the...

i cant imagine how cme he wid this kind of gal lol... anw we wen to watch inheart super name is talk abt family love.. n today svc also tok abt family love lol... hahax... after all a show tat can recoman =)...after movie went home... cause lionel they all wan play pool n i dn hav trasport if i stay lol... inside the bus i think alot... cause of some1 tat i felt so damm guiltyon fri anw i comfess to god n i told his lead the whole thing now left jol tat i haven tell her cause dn have chance to tell her today... tml she didnt go for the event lolx... pray tat there will be gal gng....

but today svc we sang my favour worship forever by chc... ithink so hahax... i love this song alot alot.. gtg le gd nite muckzz....

hey yoz...

2009-01-13T04:58:00.000-08:00

hey back to blog aga lol...

yeah got some of the photo of the usher mege event!hehe...happy...!! anw am i still doing well of all things? wonder y am i still leaving frm the past till now nt much changes? every thing is the same!!??

usher meage event let me learn alot...but i don feel anything at all! y isit so? i donnoe haix having slpless nite now aday i think cause of "aomething" n i am fear of doing? i donnoe how evey day didnt slp well onces close my eye everything will fly to my mind y is this fear keep hunting me? i felt so afried i will end up in some place which is v scary... ppl will noe wad am i refer to.. if u noe wad really happen..

i am scared of i couldnt sevwe any more, n this fear of my is drawing me far far away... how long more could i take it i donnoe... how long more could i hold on i couldnt noe... was the decision i make was it rite? i couldnt noe.

the fear of my is keep hunting me i donnoe how long more could i really hold on. soon or later i am gng to break dwn if i cant hold on anymore... this is a v curel toure cause its isnt toure my phyical but emotion mayb devil r using still chance to let me fall?

i donnoe.... i am scared in deep every time i wake up wid all the thing in mind n thinking all the negtive tot wad shld i do?i am so afrid of doing things now emotion r breaking dwn wad els i can depen on? god only u tat i can depen on. this fear tat's is hunrting me is keep pulling away i am so scared of lost my self control how long more will this goin on? i donwan to go any where living in a unless nite i couldnt see wad is my future i donwan to let my mummy to worry i donwan my friends to worry tats why i am keeping this to myself.

i felt so tried n jus donwan to do anything... i am too afrid till this stage i am in i wishing i could gone missing but i couldnt there r so much thing have to do... i wish i could gone w/o any1 notice, wishing running away w/o facing this fact. tat i gng to face soon..

i noe i shldnt write this in my blog but i need to let go of some emotion out sorry if i stunble anyone i don mean it...

some words which is in mind..

y does this fear hunting day n nite?
drawing me not closer but far away frm you god
its making me thinking of resting more n more
feeling so discourage but no one noes.
but only you tat noes wad really happens
cause u're living in my heart
every single day u r the reson
tat i can holding on

no one can compare
the love tat's you gives
cause you love me
tat's y u set me free
god i give thnks to u
in every single day i live

all the reson tat i livw
cause u live in me

refreshment?

2009-01-11T16:50:00.001-08:00

yeah... i am back to back...

ytd i hav a long day yet faithful ones...

at 1st i didnt noe why isit soo.. impt being a usher but by hearing these ppl sharing their life n testi n stuff its really insipre me alot...

ytd i really almost give up n wanting to go home as i am lost in eunos haha... at 1st i asked some one tat wait for me in eunos control.. but in the end the person ps me n wen to brought stuff as i not v sure how to go frm eunos mrt to jacob place... lol.. super long nv go there le i think gt half yr le ba..

anw must really thnx to yoke ling luckily she pick up the call after i told myself she is the last person i am gng to go home n donwan to go le.. as most of them didnt pick my call n i called until v fed up but yoke ling lead me to way told me how to go... thnks egg yoke u save my life man!

after tat kenneth call back me n he also tell me wad bus can take.. seriously i thnkz god tat i didnt give up n go back if not i will miss out alots of thing... on my way there i let god lead me the way n finally i reach there alt i reach there late abt 12 plus cause i wasted alot of time calling ppl to ask how to go there lol...

alt i reach i was damm fed up sorry ting feng if i tok to u in a rude mannder n thnx su quan for colding me dwm =)... i donnoe why now adays i become so easily anged n stuff... haix... mayb i cant slp at nite pacefully n its making me so impaintant... haix... =(

anw tats not the point...

we strt abt 1 pm 1st we played two games.. one is testing r u creative n other one is testing ur IQ in de end my grp win haha...after tat was p&w den its the exciting part yeah all the fm n joey( donnoe how to spell) teaching us thing hehe...

1st is joella n er.. another sis lead us to a role play we hav our own role to play.. n frm there i learn abt a attidue of an usher is very very impt wid a godly attidue is very diffcult for us to grow in this ministry.. and i learn tat we don do as usher cause ppl ask u to do we don sever god cause ppl ask u to sever but we sever cause we wan to sever we wan to be usher cause we wan to be an usher

anw thnkz for Cedric n another sis for teaching us wad kind of attidue we shld hav... n why r we called to sever as a usher... god doesnt put us in this ministry for fun there mus a reson y r we called to be a usher... we're called to be the usher n we can be usher every single day cause we're called to sever god's ppl during cg we can server, during svc we can usher ppl to their seat, in personal life we can be usher to serve our frenz, family

i learn not jus sat svc den we r usher but is every single day tat we called to sever sever to the full is really 100% severing...

7 attidue tat usher shld have..

1st faithfulness
e.g. if u're given a task to do like leading these cg doin holy comm but u don inspect of r they doing u can aspect them to do

2nd loyalty
. we have to be loyal to sever...

3rd love
.we need to love our fellow usher, tl, fm

4th commitment
. prov 3:27-28
. we must be commited in everything
. mus be contactable so tat the leader can contact u asking u to do thing in the way we can also help to reless some of their burnden

5th deligen and hard work
. pro 10:4-5

6th willing to scaify
. sever out of ur comfort zone

7th be spiriture depan on holy spirit
.depan on god n let him use u to impact ppl life

after all the thing we took photo but i only had one photo wid me is wid my tl suquan.. but i will wait until i hav the rest of the photo...

Twilight

2009-01-05T11:48:00.000-08:00

sunday wen to watch Twilight is a movie tat tok abt vamp its really super nice show is a must to watch =) i really love the edward as he is too kind hearted... n he is also handsome wow... i love the part tat bell wen to his hus n edward bring her to climb the tree n stuff i really find tat itis soo super sweet! imgine ur bf is a vamp n he live forever wen he bit u u will be the same n u all will loved each other forever doesnt it sweet?

i really hope to hav a r/s like them simple yet sweet n also long term!! but now i will foruse on my spiriture growth 1st r/s mayb not now cause i hope to be strong in spiriture... yap tat all for now....

is this really a game over?

2009-01-04T10:13:00.000-08:00

hi its time for me to blog aga....

it is really game over!!

i didnt noe how to say but i believe wad my shpd told me is the truth n the ans that i have been waiting!! i donnoe how long more am i to last this r/s anymore so i decided to let go... jol u're right no one can change a person unless god change.

jol i understand tat wad u mean cause u really don wish to c me drove away frm god yes he is a non believe we cant mix wid non believer in the 1st place like wad bible had already told us we cant mix tgt to the yoke! i noe u're trying to protact me frm temptation cause human is weak n we cant resist temptation so why do i still so subbon to resist it n dn wan to free frm it!

i have keep wonder wad am i doing now? why am i become like this? i wanted to sever!!I WANNA SERVE!! but wad am i doing now? cause of temptation i fall!! why am i doing this for? isit to satify my desire? wad r my motive rite now? am i choosing the rite path to go? anw from now on i MUST set a quitial for guys tat likes me lol!!

1st
MUST love god more den anything!!
2nd
Must be god cented
3rd
have e desire to grow
4th
humble- willing to learn & change

5th
emotional stable
6th
good hearted
7th
non somkers
8th
looks atleast presentable

frenzship?

2008-12-28T12:06:00.000-08:00

yoz whahaha... back to blog!!... sat wen to watch movie =) we watched bed time story its nice to watch luhx but hor quite boring de luhx b4 movie i noe abt some stuff n i cried cause some one wanted to leave!! haiz...cause the person didnt grow tat's y she don wanna stay!!

sorry if these ppl saw i was scolding the person n really sorry to the person as i don wish to see u leave church!! i hope to see u sever tgt wid me!! its really hurts wen u see ur fren tat r christian but leave church i have seen once but i don wish to see it aga anymore!!

anw svc was super funny!! esp the drama after tat wen to dinner n yes wen to watch movie wid kelvin grp!! ask jol pei me she don wan sad =(

anw after tat show went to tcc kenneth treat hehe... they were toking abt grp stuff like cg planing den tok abt the drama n stuff really have a nice time to fellowship wid them at 1st tot taking nr home but in the end cause i wanted to save money so i took 171 wid kenneth n steven home wen bus came den notice my wallet lost sianz diao..

could u believe it!! i am so careless lol.. korkor scolded me cause he brought tat wallet frm indonasia haiz....

anw jus noe tat some one care for me until cried infront of others lol... please luhx i jus donnoe wad to say wahaha... the person is super childish!!even my most childish "meimei" is mature den him luhx haiz.. donnoe la sianz diaox ....-_- haix... anyway gtg le...

dead bored!!

2008-12-26T00:42:00.000-08:00

i am so bored now!! no one is online toking to me!! so bored!! haiz.... anw jol thnx for ur xmas gift i noe wad u mean wahah... u wan me to drink more water don alwyz drink soft drink haha... i utd ...

i revieved a online gift is so sweet wahaha.. i couldnt believe tat all the thing i mail him n he really give to me lol.. i tot was joking only...

its good to have fren tat love u from who u r n forgive u went u did something wrong but its bad to have a fren controling ur life until v tie n the person alwyz say i do it is for ur own good lol

hey HELLO i am big enough to think n listen... yes i admit tat there r time i didnt noe who r rite who r wrong cause some sitution there don hav rite or wrong... anw its been one month plus i been toture by tat stupid person i hate him alot his charther sux he every thing also sux but god say we cant juage we must one n other..

its really v v super diff for me to love this person... cause of this person alot of ppl mistaken me n the person n alot of rumors coming out lol... serioully i donnoe i bring the person come to our church isit a wrong choice or not? i think cos of the person jia yi don wish to come my church she rather go chc but no matter wad we still sever the same god no matter which church she go to i am happy if she convert!!

haiz... i blieve wad the person did in the other day got a great impact in her impression also cant blame her if u all noe wad the person did to her n the additue tat the person show to her n stuff i think most of the ppl will hate the person to the max!!

sorry ppl if i had stumble u all or somthing i really don wish to keep it to myself anymore there are alot of thing i had to do n worry abt lol..

haiz... until now kat still haven reply me donnoe whether she is coming for svc anot haiz its been long i have give her teaching le i really wish to teach her but do she willing to learn? sometime i do think tat she is wasting my time she say she wan to learn but does she?

i donnoe how am i suppose to tell her how impt isit to go for cg svc teaching n shpding she say she wanted to water bap bt i don think she wan it!! she say she wan to go svc every sat but does she REALLY MEAN IT!! every sat there is alwyz an excuss for her not to come lol!!!... am i too soft toward her? i treat as adult does she really deseve?

seriously now den i noe its really hurt wen sheep bit u seriously u will never noe until u r a follow upper or shpd n then u will utd how its feel haiz...seriously i really hope 24 tat day she really did come to svc.. am qiute sad toking abt her haiz... but i really believe tat its a training or mayb a testing frm god if like tat i cant take it n i cant handle den how am i surpose to handle my furture sheep n how god supose to bless me wid sheep? so no matter god i wont give up jus do it!!!

haiz... anw gtg bb

xmas svc cum count dwn!!

2008-12-25T10:34:00.000-08:00

yo yoz.. am back to blog wahaha... yeah... ytd svc i lazy to copy notes wahaha... anw... its doesnt matter.. yesterday actually cai yun n jia yi is coming to svc btcai yun is sick so left jia yi sad... =( anw was late abit for svc cos before tat went to had some breakfast wid kelvin grp yea so wen to wang cafe eat... i brough milo ice brend but jia yi drink to most wahaha... nvm la is i let her drink de =)..

svc was too many ppl at there really v crowed anw in de end i cant sit wid my grp but i sit wid vincent they all svc strt feeling like slping lol... drama part alt they nv tok but i noe wad isit abt.

the story is abt a gal once is v close wid god but satan trying to atteck her using a guy tat look handsome n say love her n in de end the guy leave her god see-ing her beening her n was sad but he couldnt let her noe he was there until she relise..

after tat guy left her satan trying to tampt her wid money wid drug even satan send ppl to trying teach her how to kill herself all out the time god was there but she didnt noe cause she cant hear god voice, cause god voice is soft n gender, god see through all the time tat the satan trying to destory her but one day the gal relise tat god is there wanted to help her so she wanted to go back to him but the devil keep pulling her away from god in the end god he protected her frm the evil ones...

cause god promises that i will never leave you or forsake you no matter wad u did repent n god will forgive...

while i was watch my tears became to flow i wripe it n tok to jia yi cause i want her to pay attendion to the drama n the seromd but she keep playing her phone haiz... i am quite sad tat she didnt convert but i will nv give up!!! no matter wad isit god is alwyz in control!!

GOD TOUCHES HEART!!

2008-12-19T10:30:00.000-08:00

yeah! i am back to blog le...

yeah god touches the heart of ppl once aga =)jus now wen to my ex church xmas party is touching wen watching a video a small video yet can touches everyone heart i believe there are ppl who cried wen they watched the video jus like me hehe..

i believe tat god is alwyz there went we're in truoble yes he is there beside us but we didnt notice cause we cant see him yeah!...

after the altra call was refreshment though out i was keep sharing christ to this sister tat a brother brough her come i believe tatis god blessing tat i noe this sister but she don wan to convert cause of her mother i was deep sad but i believe one she will convert now wad can i do is to pray for her yup!

oh gosh i am sick now wahhaa... tat all for now =)... hope tml svc will be great!

mmm.. any other story?

2008-12-15T11:59:00.000-08:00

yeah am back to blog wahhaha... i am v tried!! could not slp at all donnoe why lol!!! jus now i was ministed by god some how during the DI class all the word r tokin to me oh ok...

wahaha.... went ace teach finsih n we were to share wad have we learn as ppl gets to share somehow i think that we really be word cented in n obey god's word this two thing are very very impt! yeah wen you choose to obey god will bless your ppl, if u choose to disobey god will not bring bless to our ppl

in life god wont force us to do thing, in fact, he let us choose wherther to bring blessing or troubles to our ppl

and we was saying tat abaham he give he one and only son to died cause he noe god and he obey god tat's y he is call the rightous and god make him the father of all nation

in this teaching i really felt that be word cented is really very impt as if you're strong in god's word and u impact ur ppl the word accoring to his words he will bless and also went satan is trying to tempt us and we wont fall so easily as god will protect us frm satan yeah...

its really late now will blog aga soon

DEAR FRENDS OF MY!!!

2008-12-14T23:11:00.000-08:00

Hey ppl

christmas is coming yeah is a joy for it cause is the day tat jesus born!!! the son of god has born in this day so these non- christian i ugren u tat really come join me for my church svc!!! as in john 3:16 is say

"for god so love the world and he sent his one and only son to die on the cross tat whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

john 8:4

"Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?" 6They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him

john 8:12

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.

that is why so love us hey friend now jesus is keep knocking on the heart of door can you soften ur heart n recieve him? its really hurt Him tat u keep away frm him n say i don need u. imagine wid me your children in the future saying daddy or mammy i don need you how do you feel?

its the same way god is our father that create the heaven n earth n we're his creation also tat why he longs to tok to you, help you in the mids of troubles, bless you with the best person in ur life, heal your breaken heart, heal you went you fall sick, protact you in the mid of danger, give you peace went you fear, comfortyou wen you need comfort just a prayer away he will be with you forever

as he promise us that these who come near me i will never drive them away friend now is the time now is the time that god say hey children is time to come back to me people please put yourself in god shoe n think would it hurt wen your children donwan to come back to you?

imagine with me that in future wen ur children grow older n u urself getting older n all your children don wan to stay with you would it really hurt you? now god is feeling this way cause he love us he want to build up a r/s with us and he want us to go back to him and yet you're the children that don wan to come back to him every day every min every sec he is calling our name asking us to come back by his side n he will be always and forever with us

friends i share wid you god is really real in my life he really protect me went i am in the mid of danger n really send his ppl to save me, heal me wen i really sick, he send people to confort me went i super sad or down as in, in this ur ard feb tat time i am super sick and i pray god for healing n wen to c doc the next day i am totally heal, there r more like i lost my book wen i finish praying i found my book god really hear every one prayer...

some time i felt in this world there is no one i can believe but god show me that i can trust me i can relie on him i can depen on him. i couldnt believe that i had a friend that i cant see him but he is wid me every hours evey min every sec once you call on his name he will listen to you.

friends i really hope that u will hope me on 20,24 or 27 dec to celebrate n i really hope to see you tgt wid me...

worship song

2008-12-14T11:42:00.000-08:00

HEART OF A SERVANT

STANDING OF YOUR AWE OF
YOUR GARCE
SETTING MY FEET
IN YOUR WAYS
ENTERING INTO
YOUR PRESENCE
TO BEHOLD YOU
FACE TO FACE
GOD OF ALL HEAVEN
AND EARTH

HOLDING ME IN
YOUR EMBRACE
UNFAILING LOVE
THAT SURROUND ME
OH GOD
I STAND AMAZED

MY JESUS, MY LORD
YOU'RE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE
WHENEREVER YOU GO
WANNA BE BY YOUR SIDE
NO LONGER I
BUT CHRIST LIVING IN ME
SERVING YOU FOR
ALL ETERNITY

MY EYE SET ON YOU
IN THIS RACE THAT I RUN
NO LONGER MY WAY
LET YOUR WILL BE DONE
MAKE ME A SERVANT
MY HEART'S EVER TRUES
CLINGING TO THE CROSS
I'LL FOLLOW YOU (x2)

FIRST

I LOVE BECAUSE
YOU FIRST LOVED ME
I LIVE BECAUSE
OF WHAT YOU GAVE
YOU DIED
SHOWED ME HOW TO LIVE
YOUR MERCY TAUGHT ME
TO FORGIVE

YOU CAME AND POURED
YOURSELF SO FREE
YOU BLOOD WASHED
AWAY MY SHAME
AND NOW I CAN LIVE AGAIN
I'M MORE OF YOU
LESS OF ME

MY FIRST LOVE
FOREVER YOU WILL BE
MY FIRST BREATH
YOU'RE THE LIFE IN ME
MY FIRST JOY
THE WORLD CAN NEVER
TAKE FROM ME
MY COVENANT WITH YOU
JESUS

YOUR LOVE FALLS DOWN(x2)
FALL ON ME
YOUR LOVE FALLS DOWN(x2)
FALL ON ME

GOD OF MY FOREVER

GOD OF MY YOUTH
I REMENBER
YOUR CALL ON MY LIFE
TOOK ME O'ER
YOUR LOVE HAS SEEN ME
THROUGH ALL MY DAY
I STAND HERE BY YOUR GRACE

ON THIS ALTAR
I'VE WRITTEN MY LIFE
TELL OF THE STORY
I HAVE WITH MY LORD
I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
MY LIFE IS SAVE
WITH A PRICE
YOUR SACRIFICE
REDEEMED MY SOUL

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
MY GRESTEST HONOR
WILL ALWAYS BE
TO SERVE
MY LORD AND KING

GOD OF MY ALL
I'VE SURRENDERED
MY HEART FINDS ITS REST
IN YOUR WORD
PRAISES WILL NOT
BE ENOUGH TO SHOW
HOW MY LOVE FOR YOU
HAS GROWN

NOTHING MATTERS
WHEN YOU'RE HERE WITH ME
IN THE END JUST TO HEAR
YOU SAY" WELL DONE"
BOEING BEFORE
YOUR THRONO

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
MY LIFE IS SAVE
WITH A PRICE
YOUR SACRIFICE
REDEEMED MY SOUL

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
MY GRESTEST HONOR
WILL ALWAYS BE
TO SERVE
MY LORD AND KING

FOREVER AND EVER
JESUS YOU ALONE
IN GLORY REIGN
FOREVER AND EVER
WITH YOU I WALK
THIS NARROW WAY

WALAU SERIBU REBAH- ENGLISH

Mercies that rise with the new morn
Set me apart as a new born
Each moment I live, by faith I believe
With You I'm never alone

Darkness may come, trials seem so long
You are the light I depend on
Through valleys and storms, Your word keeps me strong
My shelter, refuge and song
I trust in You

Everyday I live
I know You are my God
I lift my face and look to you my God
Even when the mountains tremble
And a thousand fall
I will stand with You
My Jesus
Take my all

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XZ ONCE AGA...it will b e a long post..

2008-12-14T07:54:00.000-08:00

back to blog wahaha.... yeah...

yesterday is my cg de ta jie bday wahaha... guess u all shld noe yes.. its my cl xiuzhen bday..

thurs cg was planing for her bday already fri over slpt ard 1 plus rush down to ps to meet xiuzhen n jing mei to eat pizza hut oh still own xz money..lol...anw wen i reach there ard 3plus jol was not there but james was there i didnt noe y james r wid us at 1st after nt long, jol came after she eat finish we decided to go roky mostor i sit there nth to do sia ard 8 or 9 plus we wen back to ps to shopping

not long kelvin they all came kelvin b brough a classmate wid him is a gal so i wen out tok to her n she give i dao face lol... donnoe wad to tok as she is these v dao to these who don really her i keep try to let her open up but i fail lol..

after tat wen to jol house to strt baking cake n making jelly at 1st tot jing mei cant come but she came ard 12 plus n help me make jelly n cakes also wash up we doin finish was ard 3 plus n jing mei was hungry so we decided to go prata shop to eat we sit there till 6 plus toking abt youth time family church n stuff..i really thnkful to have wonderful cg grow n serve tgt wid me...=)the photo will update soon

sat was were so damm tried imagine u gt only 1 hr slp n prever nite u slp less den 5 hrs we're super tried wen i close eye i will fall aslp n tat's how tried i am 9 am wake up after tat took cab dwn to xz hus yeah! the video wasnt wid me sad... yeah! but we manage to fool xz wahaha... n she really didnt notice we were wid jol near her block there.. she was super surprice wen she saw us haha...

after tat celebration we took cab dwn amk minstry house for workers meeting... yeah...after tat wen to cuppage tgt wid kelvin li ping they all ard 5plus 6 den wen up to nexus after P&W after kat sms she told me tat she over slpt i was like wad excuse isit wth... but think back i also had time tat nv go cg cause of over slpt too i told jol abt it she comfront me saying its ok n it really make me felt better..=)

seriously i really donnoe how to teach her or tell her not to miss svc n cg at times i do really hope tat she really utd y cg n svc is soo impt she is strong but i donnoe hw to say haiz....

anw after svc go for usher meet the gift exchange.. i recived a c christian story book frm a uni sis call xiao wei hehe... but my gift i think i left it inside xz hus didnt take haiz...after tat i donnoe where is my cg sia...at the end is at the usual place den wen i settler dwn xz told us got worker meet aga ok den wen for meeting den notice i had a miss call by one of my contact...i couldnt get thur after tat miss call. not long the meeting strted i pray tat i had at least 2 convert jol n jas also but inside me i hope for 3/4 convert as i think 2 convert is really like no faith like tat yap...

after tat wen to mac to buy buger to eat den wen home on the way to the mrt i notice tat my gift was gone i am tried till forget to take n wen i wen back to mac find i could find haiz...i call kelvin n ask him wherther he gt saw the bk n he told me tat he didnt see n ask me wen back to ask the ppl there n they didnt found any book i was so sad..=( den i wen out i pray to god saying

"god can help me to find back my story book in jesus name i pray aman"

after tat pray i saw one yellow page so i wen in to take a look see werther is my book n YES IT IS MY BOOK TAT I LOST!!! yeah God ans my prayer...after tat took train n wen home....

lol

2008-12-11T14:53:00.000-08:00

oh gosh i am so broke now lorx... sianz...lol... donnoe this sat will have enough money for busfare to ministry to svc LOL... sianz diao x.x.... couldnt believe tat i am ssooo broke now diao... hahax... but i am now keep praying for a brother as he has alot of problem lorx..

now he is same as me alot of problem wahahaha.... financal, n some others problem wahha... wondering will god bless me wid lot of money? haha... my case shld be closing soon ba lol... x.x... sad.. if anyone wad really happen to this brother.

believe tat god will help ba haha.... haiz... donnoe how to help also... i myself also like cant save myself le so how am i surppose to help lol...but at least he is sharing to me hehe... hopping tat he will be more open to the ppl n stuff ba ...

cg was fun we were playing card games haha... i noe the holy comm was kind soldom n v random as in i really not sure how to link to pray lol... was stuck at there n also i didnt noe wad am i praying lol... haha... pray until donnoe wad am i praying LOL...

yeah after all cg was fun n we share alot of thing wahha...e.g abt the sow thing n our own testi haha... i really find tat in deep God is still wonderful as like no matter wad r we facing he is wid us haha....

yesterday sevice...

2008-12-07T07:10:00.000-08:00

yo back to blog aga hehe... yeah!! god is really real in my life why do i say so...

ytd was a v fulfil day tat i ever had in my life so far... why? haha...

afternoon ard 12pm wake up saw my hp was full of sms n 2 or 3 miss call LOL!! one of the sms was some one gf tat begged me to drop out the case infact i was too soft hearted i felt they're so poor thing n thinking of dropping out but i pray to god also i cried to god saying "god shld i jus drop out the case n let him go?"

at 1st i told steven abt it n he say press on n i asked my shpd joleen she also say like tat but the gf say until really pitty i keep on pray after tat ard 2 plus wen to meet jol for shping... we was toking n eating ya we tok abt the case i tok until i wanted to cried but i control myself until jol asked me to read a vers in proverb i couldnt control n break down i cried...

jol was there to encourage me not to give up press on n god is saying tat trust in me i will free the rightous n the wicked wont go unpushine. jol keep saying don soft heart on them wad u hav to do is tell the truth, wen jol was praying i rmb i read abt forgiving i told jol abt it she told me sayin u can forgive him but u still hav to tell the truth... i couldnt noe wad will haven n wad the jugdues will do but i will do my bestn tell them wad is happen the rest leave to god decide...

anw... svc once aga is abt trustin god oh my is really a day of my haha... i couldnt stop say praise the lord almighty i couldnt stop loving him more n more i am more closer to god!!!

dear god i thnks for listen to me wen time i need you the most u alwyz say ur ppl to save me u're my regfus u're my lord u're my sertcet place...god draw me closer ro you refresh the ppl tat are tried comfront the ppl oh lord.. hear our cried this is our cried one only desire to be wid u lord.. wad i want right now is be wid u forever god i need u without u my life is in a mess i couldnt live without now

god now i pray for xiuzhen now she is having project encourage her to press on i pray for jol as she continue to sever to teach ur words grow her more n more i pray for jas tat she wont be easily angry she can control her tampter i pray for yokeling now she is havin attchment continue to use her greatly i pray for steven tat he will be more teachable n humble i pray for myself tat no matter wad pull me thru in all the diffculties tat i am gng to face i pray all this in jesus migthy name AMEN!!!

wo zhen de hao xiang ni....

2008-12-05T21:28:00.000-08:00

世界忽然变形忽然很安静
无助的我一秒间失去重心
听你不停为我担心
看你不停离我而去
你要我照顾自己

是我做了什么让天使生气
还是忘了做什么幸福远离
也许该要真的相信
有种爱叫远远关心
痛却又哽住呼吸
我用狂奔用无力用恶梦去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没半点权利决定

我用痛哭用回忆用深爱去想你
去体会什么是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇气诚实地想你
也许应该要真的相信
是有种爱叫远远关心
是不是担心我怕黑不敢前进
那颗本来没坠落的流星
才拼命烧亮了自己

thinking of some thing now n this song jus come to my mind haha... its a song in this show call wudi shan bao mei is a v v super nice show haha... think gtg le bb...

God Blessing aga !!!

2008-12-05T03:52:00.000-08:00

yeah back to blog =)yeah! this week is our team turn to serve aga!!! =p looking forward to tml !!! yeah!!! ytd was a great day for me!! wake up korkor let me use his laptop as he say tat don touch his desk top lol!!! use his lappy to watch wudi shan bao mei =)yeah!!!after tat i tot i only gt $1 puls but didnt expeced tat i had $3.50 so wen to took bus to yishun n took 171 to dbg...

was late reach there ard 6plus to 7 meet steven n kelvin den reach istana park ard 7.03 kanna say by xz -.-.. after cg wen home wid steven as xz they all wen home le sad... inside the train he tok abt kelvin sayin tat he is a nice guy n mayb can consister i was lik LOL!!! cause i treat him as my brother only haha...

sudden he say tat gt handsome guy i was like LOL not handsome at all lol... den gt three guy come he he say aga i saw one handsome guy he say wan to ask for no anot i jus like LOL ask for num for wad den he say tat wan to took his pic den i jus like joking askin him take his pic he was damm funny i keep laughing until stomuch pain n cause of tat he own me $10 haha...

wen reach home tok to steven for awhile den wen to use com den korkor giv me $10 donnoe for wad lol... haha... mmm... think gtg le bb...

hello

2008-12-02T08:29:00.000-08:00

yoz this is long since i last update yeah haha...few week back wen i had my ministry yes is the god talk serier 1 i didnt expected there is a healing part yeah! but gald tat my neck ached is gtting better yeah

second week aga gt had healing session as my shoulder ached is being heal yeah PTL = Praise The Lord!! yeah!! its been great tat can server in ministry become a follow upper alt she still not strong but i believe god will help de =) sat alwyz v rush cant give her teaching but weekday she not free too... sad...

last week yeah gt my fren tat backsided wanted to come back to god yeah!! happy for him =p at least a soul been save ya mmm.. but find tat he thinking is jus like pri sch student haiz...

anw i now currently wrkin as sales line yea selling sliming product feng shui body shape tool n healthy stuff yeah

feng shui is the one tat is arua photo tat can let u noe wen is ur lucky day or mths who is ur lucky star how is ur health how is ur love life wad kind of job is suitable for u wad r u think currently ect.. for 3- 6 mth jus 4 $18...

will say more soon as i slping le bb

today

2008-11-15T09:35:00.000-08:00

yoz back to blog!!! i am v tried!! donwan to slp early i hopping to get a kon soon... so tat i wont have time to snyhow think n stuff yeah! its been a tring day yet fun wahaha... as i am serving today yeah!!

i found out tat guy does like these cute stuff e.g. winnie the pooh!!, tebby bear ect... hehe... i like these thing to cause is very cute to me... =) anw.. ppl noe me well will noe wen i saw winnie the pooh i will gt crazy wahahaha....I AM A BIG FAN OF POOH BEAR!! JJ LIN also wahaha..cause he simply look cute... =) hehe... that's tat abt the sharing part...

wen started to perpare n stuff went to change to de shrit find out tat ruth shrit is super big for me n a sis tat borrow the shrit from joella is small n is like the sis can wear ruth shirt n i can wear joella shirt is really fun cause ruth is small size n joella is abit big size but i can wear joella size n the sis can wear ruth size is like dotz.. feel v funny cause is the oppside ahahah...

wen svc strt i stand ard tp side didnt saw kalyne... sad.. =( but svc is fun yeah... but sad thing is kat didnt turn up... she is sick but lucky she today nv come if not she sure wont utd wad the speaker talking as i myself also have a hard time also...don really utd so didnt write much...felt so slpy inside svc... but was refreshing.... =) yeah!!! I WANT TO OBEY GOD'S WORD AND FOLLOW GOD'S WAY!!! PTL

am i extra?

2008-11-14T12:02:00.000-08:00

jus couldnt slp alots of thing inside my mind... i couldnt say wad was it but wanna go work n rent a room just donwan to leave at my house le.. y? haha...

reson is because can u imagine u own family ask u to slp at kitchen? cause no more room... i really have nothing to say... no body knows how i have been treat in my family i just like extra in this house nobody need me n i don need any1 in this house...

does it sound like we're not a family? wahaha... its so funny n yeah nobody believed me tat my family did treat me like a extra person.

imagine u have two bro n a mother n ur house is 3 room flat yes one roon for korkor n one room for mama tat's all wad abt me?

mama say" i ask my bf's fren to make a room at the kitchen lor den ah yan can slp there or if no more $$den ah yan go slp tgt wid u all lorx just like now"

korkor" we don have money le n u wan to ask ppl to do a room? why ah yan cant slp wid u? Plus ah yan is a gal n she grow up le she cant alwyz slp tgt wid us anymore"

mama" oh i wan a room cause my bf sometime wan to come n slp "

so in the 1st place why mama wan to move house? n is jus move to top is still same block n add but diff floor n unti no only is like as well don move some more move to a smaller wan WTH!!...if u'll in my shoe wad do u all think/ feel?

as well go out of the house n rent one room stay alone better rite? wahahaha... its jus so funny u own gt ur family don wan to stay tgt n wanted to move house n stay alone. But i had enough kor kor always touch my leg took my photo even touch my stonmuch n hand n say me fat .

Yes i am fat so wad is my problem is really non of his business even some time he hit my hand/ leg jus for fun -_-'''.... but if u hit back he hit it even harder

sec korkor is still normal den de 1st wan wahahah....mayb we're close ba... And everytime cause of money keep qurreling no work they will NAG NAG N NAG UNTIL U GT A JOB IF TOO FAR mama will say" ah yan arhx y u always find these job v far de" if not job korkor n mama will say" ah yan arhx wen u wan to work" HELLO is u say tat my work is too far find a near wan dot... donnoe wad to do then they will satify

even a fren korkor wont say a thing like u're unless u're a piece of shit or even take away ur thing n say kiss my leg 1st den i will giv u back or bend the wall 1st den i will give u back den i will take his hp n exchange

ppl ask me y am i having low estime( donnoe hw to spell) but have they wonder wad kind of family do i come frm since my daddy pass away? if u say kor help me cook i donnoe hw he will say cook urself or tat ur own problem or i'm tried i lazy to cook or kiss my ass 1st den i will cook

Imagine everyday everytime ur korkor say tat to u n u're a gal how do u feel? no money ask frm them they will say i don hav money le but ask frm me i must give wad de shit is this i don even hav money to make my own ic wad can i say... i cant say anything...

today CG

2008-11-13T09:57:00.000-08:00

today

before cg wen to meet jol to eat haha... after eating wen to amk hub to brought water n fuirts den head down to abi house haha...reach to de bus stop wah donnoe how to walk haha.. den i c my hp xz sms-ed me hy today u lead holy com.

inside my heart was like HUH!! ok lorx is really super last min thing i not scared of anything but about the prayer serious i really donnoe wad to pray i tot jol haha.. she told me reach abi house den pratice lorx..i was damm scared n stress cause my eng is super sux n there's a gal who don really understand wad am i toking oh god...

i obsever her i noe she like don't really understand wad am i trying to say n do but nevermind can improve haha... sry my prayer was long cause i donnoe wad to pray so i let holy spirit to guide me in this prayer after prayer come to sharing...

sharing is abt real faith haha.. alt this i had learn alot of time but diff time i learn diff thing =) now praying fo kethrine tat she will utd wad am i gng to teach this sat...=) n hope have the time to spend wid her...

tears flowing down :'(

2008-11-09T01:35:00.000-08:00

yeah ytd svc was ministed by GOD once aga.... this few month i keep wonder y is my heart felt so dry? I worship GOD totally i forcus totally everytime there must be something tat come in to my mind i could find GOd wen i worship, i cant find him, wen i Pray i cant interseed,(donnoe how to spell) wad wrong wid me now? Sorry ytd after praise wen worship i cant help but fall aslp aga i felt sp tried i repented haha...

i keep praying n praying n praying GOD where r u? WHy i cant find u? why is there so many thing happen? but GOD say to me n some of the ppl say

GOD" i'm coming soon... i am coming very soon... just keep praying i will come during holycom, ur qt, ur worship time, during sermond. Just keep praying...

i heard it GOD i believe YOU are coming soon i will keep knocking n knocking on the door as YOU promises us in Matt 7:7

"ask and you be given seek and you will found, knock on the door and the door will be open"

God this is wad you promises us i'll keep knocking until i found You. I'll keep praying praying n praying until the door is open until i can find YOU...

holycom time my tears flow dwn... i donnoe isit good or bad but wen the spreaker say abt the sinful women de story remind me of tat day... i cant get it out of my head i donnoe how and i donnoe wad to do... i listen to the person speak saying

luke 7:36-38

36Now one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, so he went to the Pharisee's house and reclined at the table. 37When a woman who had lived a sinful life in that town learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee's house, she brought an alabaster jar of perfume, 38and as she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.

tears strted to flow down i noe GOD is toking to me to encourage me wid this vers. I couldnt help but tear keep falling i am so scared to see GOD course i noe i had did sometime wrong anw... sermond was quit useful to me

after every thing wen to marnieia to eat i hopping the contact tat i had out reach b4 svc will come to noe god soon... i noe she is a v good seed i believe GOD is working in her life soon... anw... fellowship part was quit boring after every1 left to CL meeting or sending contact to mrt i donnoe y i become so "si zhan" tat i act v retarted den jas keep laughing after every thing kenneth me kelvin n jul wen home tgt..

the down cast monments

2008-11-06T17:32:00.000-08:00

yoz.... back to blog aga yeah ...

basically alot of this happen to me this few day mmm... i don wan to say at here cause is really v v personal so can ask me wen u saw me =)...for now i will try to take time to recover from tat as seriously wen i c car or somewhere it will remain me of tat day de unplaceful day or mayb can say a v sinful day...

why am i call it a sinful day? haha... so or later i will tell u all but for now jus keep me in prayer yeah!!... ytd was my worse day yet i still must thank god caus i noe i still alive...=D mayb some other day u'll c a zombin working ard haha... j/k j/k... ytd was the day my emotion break down seriously i really prayer to god in my heart say god later am gng to lead parise but how am i gng to lead wid thing kind of thing happen to me?

i keep crying n crying non stop at home cause wen i think of tat person or other person i will strted crying n crying but wen i go out i keep praying n praying saying tat god help me don let my emotion rule me god did ans wen i reach i saw a cute sis haha.. tat is xz bro de daughter she was so cute n make me smile =) wen inside jol was praticing worship haha...

could see god really help me.... seriously ytd i really couldnt lead cos am really navours donnoe how n really scared cos nv lead b4 hehe.. but thnx to jol helped me out as i really not sure of the song. Throught ytd worship i really sense tat we really need God in our life so tat we can lead a rightous life before him xz ytd say a thing tat really make me think but i forget wad is tat le shit...

I couldnt even remember a single words
matt 21:21-22 Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done. 22If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer

matt 7:7
ask and you will be given seek and you will find kocnk on the door and door will be open

dear God i come to u wid a humble heart rite now you noe wad is happening in our life lord help us over come all the problem n thing tat we afrid of i couldnt c a light show me where is ur light god only u can show only u will noe n only u will love us from who we are ppl will hurt us ppl will leave us but only u never leave us as u say in the bible i will never foresake u abba father pls help me n guide me into ur light once again i noe i not worthy i am such a sinful person but ur love was wid me thnx for remaining me wen i feel tat nth was left wid me n u told me u're wid me cause u live in me n u told me no matter wad u do my child repent i will forgive you as i had die n pay for ur sin ya i pay for ur sin n ur frenz tat surround u god thnx for reminding me of ur love once again i pray in jesus name amen...

anw lastly i wanted to say thnks to jas for the encouargement n stuff don worry worss i will be fine soon!!!... GOD WILL LEAD N GUIDE ME IN HIS LIGHT ONCE AGAIN!!

yoz

2008-11-03T09:58:00.000-08:00

its been few day never touch my blog le....

but sat svc was great at least i really hope tat god got speak to kathrine. as i really hope to see her severing in ministry n severing faithfully as i can see tat she had a protient in her some time i really wonder why am i become her shpd but nt yoke ling or jas or jol seriously i really v v super scared of taking care of her cause is not abt wad but is about life n is about the walk wif god....

some time i really hope she can understand my heart beat as in i really wan her to grow n really want her to sever cause throught severing we can learn alot of thing n u can grow much more deeper seriously i donnoe how to say wen u sever u really have the joy n peace in u tat no one can take away!!! mmm... its gtg late i think i stop here le bye......

yo

2008-10-30T01:50:00.000-07:00

hey its been week tat i nv update my blog le haha... donnoe wad to update n v lazy to update...anw now let see wad to write...

mon

was a day from fellowship n learn form one and other.. ya n its is teaching day =) yuppi learn something like i want to contorl my emotion n wont hider my future sheep growth i am trying my best...

tue

today wen to out reach wid kelvin n kenneth at 1st was wid li ping den she not in sch so xz give me kelvin no den ask me to go out reach wid them ok lorx but at the end we wen to machperson to out reach instead of simei haha... sad peishan n some of them don rmb me =(... but is okey.... atleast i got share to a gal who r christian but not conneted to her church...

wed

went to simei but wake up late ooo shit.... but at least got blessing as in i took train to expo n i pray tat i will hav a sit so tat i can read my bible.. n god really ans i had a sit haha... wen reach expo took cab but i didnt noe my $10 were gone but lucky de diver was so kind n he drive me to si mei w/o paying him den wen strt out reach wah less den 30 min i gt at least 10 contact =) ard 1 plus wen to draw money at tamp there den wen back wait for kelvin n li ping but we didnt go out reach so slack until 6 plus took train home..

thurs

today staying at hm but tml think will go for out reach =) gng to cg le bb

1st day of usher!!!

2008-10-25T12:52:00.000-07:00

yoz yoz.... today is my 1st day of serving am super happy n alwyz lookin forward its really fun to serve =)...althrough at 1st was v "jin zhang" n really really v scared cause 1st time so is kind of lost while p&w time...

1st thing to do is welcoming the ppl angel & me was really damm narvous but thank god for su quan tat encourage us =).... n after tat encourage i wont be so scared as jus now... haha.. its really fun to serve !!!

althrough mayb some of them do mistake but overall we done a great job!! =P... really hope tat cn serve more offen =) its getting late n i shld go to slp le... byebye.....

2008-10-24T10:49:00.000-07:00

today wen to meet kathrine for shpding, been waiting for this day v long cos so something... anw i think i was abit late as i tot the mrt would will be faster.. ok anw she tot tat i not coming but ya haha...

after eating wen out de mac for awhile cos she wan to tok to me n i find out something n i really v shock to noe tat but is normal for now adays so ya ...she told me abt her life n stuff ... ok.. we rest until 5 plus 6 den strted to teach her... yeah!...at 1st i donnoe how to translate to chinese but think god work thru me to speak to her.... after shpd wen home...

wen to calina hus to borrow her dress as my dress really donnoe at where den wen home..

tml is the 1st time to serve v v excited haha... hope it goes smoothly.... anw b4 tat will go for out reach wid joleen looking forward....hehe...

yo

2008-10-20T09:31:00.000-07:00

yo it been long since i las update le ba haha...this blog is gng to collect dash le... anw this few week super tried i quit my last job n come to work in turf club as op is really super slack sia but over all the job is alrite la is just tat everyday i have to drag my leg to there cause u noe i cant do anything wen i free is super super super super damm sian lor sms ppl nid money de lor haiz.... tml i mayb cant go work as hus nid ppl to stay as gt ppl to come to c hus

mama r working korkor ns so i nid to stay at hm but if de person nv come i will be working sian seriously i compete this two month i really don wan to work there as its really boring like hell lorx i whether work as waitness better as in the u wont fall a slp cause u cant really rest so u wont feel tried break time can slp awhile after tat strt work c so good haiz... miss these day haha...

oh god give me strenght so i wont be slpy n fall aslp wen working but if de ppl come den i nid to be at home sian lor anw gtg le bb

this few days...

2008-10-09T04:16:00.000-07:00

yoz haha... tue wen out wid kaisze wen to eat a chinese restasunce v nice gt free flow of drink n ice cream!! omg!! before tat wen to eat de ice cream at the city link de new shop took some pic haha...

de ice cream tat we share

my share

complete set

kaisze de

after tat wen took 960 go home but wen reach woodlands took 903 to woodlands old cental to brought backbag at $30

wed

wen to work as usual after tat wen to jol bday celebration yeah! happy birthday!! really lucky tat i didnt call jol haha... reach there ard 4 plus den saw july jiejie haha... at 1st didnt notice tat she called me as i was bz sms-ing den she wen near me ask called me den i realize pei her walk ard 1st den ard 5.45 like wen to quee up for sit den wait at there for very long as they say tat they nid 70% of the ppl come den can let us in wad de... de svc was not good at all lorx.... but de food was very very nice..

after eating celebrated jol bday de cake was a surprise den we notice at there gt 3 grp celebrating birthday haha.... anw de cake was nice but too bad i very full so eat v small sillce cannot le haha... took some pic miie at work

inside toiletjol n glenn

birthday cake

......

jol wid de cake

wad is she doing?

smell de cake wahaha...

de cake after blowing

yeah me & birthday galz

missing?

2008-10-05T09:54:00.001-07:00

yoz... missing from bloging for few week wahaha... too lazy to blog le wahaha... let see

seriously i donnoe wad to really blog about haha... maybe blog about ministry thing ba mmm... thurs wen to meet sk as she wanted to meet me wait for her until 5 like tat walk walk for a awhile den took cab to city hall den took train wen reach xz called asked me where am i after tat wen to mac find xz den only saw her n yokeling den we wen tgt actually it was a prayer meetin n xz told us abt monday gt bs den thrus gt st out reach we jus go down to st den stright away share christ i was v excided but also v v scared as i noe myself i am v v scared of rejection oh no haiz....
anw we prayed for de out reach, family, cg, fince at tat time i was de second to pray tat's means after yk is me i was super scared as i really donnoe how to pray but i told god to help me n god ans i pray a v v short prayer n it end haha.... after tat went home wid xz as we took same bus

anw i jus read jol blog haha... some how missing de days tat having fun wid michelle jol n jas haha...mmm... think stop here le bye...

2008-09-24T09:16:00.000-07:00

today happy blated birthday to ting feng! hope u enjoy urself wid us now v tried but yet still cnt slp as i still waiting for my hair to dry tml gng be died as i cnt slp by now haiz... ytd share christ to charlies but reject nvm.. still will jia you anw.. jus nw wen to adm to pay de rest of de fees after tat wen to meet ting feng wen to eat after tat wen to bugis st to shop while we wen up to 2nd floor jess called asked me am i at bugis i was shock how they noe den they said they saw me at 1st floor there den i was huh ook they wen look for me haha...

thnx god tat gt sk they all if not really donnoe wad to tok to him haha... n will be super boring sk really change alot by see-ing de way she dress the way she tok they way she walk really change after our walk walk wen to adm aga to meet xz n jas while waiting at mac saw jul wid her brother we chated awhile den she wen off after tat jas call haha after meeting wen to play ground slack until 11 den go home...

2008-09-21T00:54:00.000-07:00

ytd moring wake up at 6.30 super lazy to go WFL but still when there oh shit de whole day super giddy headached seriously i donnoe hw cn i over come i my body is aching every where esp my leg super pain walk also like dunk ppl

WFL i only utd de behind part abt de grp discussion ect.. de hisory super diffcult to utd i had learn abt how to deal wid pro in many perspective ect.. by asking urself y am i angel wad had make me so angry if its a person ask urself if a did it u angry bt if b-z did de same thing do u still angry or not angry if u still angry tat mean is de thing tat they do not de person but likewise if u not angry tat mean u're angry wid de person n nt wad happen

but maybe u can pray to god so tat u can forgive de person wad for wad he/she did to you like bible say tat forgive ur emery like the way i forgive ur sin n love ur ememy like the way u love urself tat is wad god wnt us to do is'nt it?

anw after WFL wen to eat wid angel, kenneth they all as i donnoe where to go also as no one in my cg r there so i wen wid them bt i super giddy & headached lor many lack of slp plus de wherther v hot wen they eat really don feel like eating anything so just sit dwn n c them eat anw must thanks to kenneth also as keep remind me to surrder all to god he even sing singing de song surrder cos i was v scared as in the holycom no one gng to do n one person is impossible to do it in one hr but he say me u shld surrder to god instead of crying so i pray while we walking to mrt at de end god he ans xiuzhen n yaoming r helping me oh thnx god

after perparing holycom wen to pei xiuzhen eat as she haven eat so i brought papaya to eat cos she say tat only i eat den v werid she i pei her lorx after tat wen wid yao ming to meet his grp cos their grp gt visitor not long joleen came n i called wan yu to ask her where is she after tat we wen to ise cafe to meet wan yu den wait for jas to come den wen up saw angel aga haha.. she nv fail to bring a smile to me =)

svc was great alt i felt really sick n felt wnted to go home bt i stay through praise i didnt jump much as i really v v sick worship i cried ,i cried super had its a secret between god n me mayb nt cos i told angel abt it after worship my "bi ti" almos come out so ask tisuss frm jol but she don hav so asked frm yao ming

stpuid la he say i noe u sick bt no nid to cry lol i nt cos of sick den cry svc was more then work after svc really felt like gng home bt i stay until they eat finish finally she approve me to go for ushering yeah! haha... wen home after tat shower den go slp

today jus nw have a dream abt xz asking de head of de usher den kanna reject i v sacred n other dream is de leadership camp gt my name den i was like v shock its really v v werid dream haiz... gng to slp le ta ta

pray n pray n pray

2008-09-17T09:11:00.001-07:00

today super tried den didnt wake up frm work plus was having cough n fever sian .. nid to stay at home de whole day tml mus go work den sat cnt go nid to go for WFL xz until now haven reply my sms i donnoe wn to tell katherine abt the WFL anot sian this week n nxt wekk my pay will be $8 less as i taking leave for sat plus today mc

haiz... really donnoe leh cos sat is the day we cn earn de most we working 9 hrs bt gt ministry if nv go will feel back like i ps GOD like tat if go den $45 gone sharyln also ask why donwn to come den i told her i gt church stuff ai ya she shld utd as she also a christian ma

but de point is i donnoe wn to go anot if take v ma fan wan nid to do alot of thing if nv take leave go work den will feel like i ps God some more cos of something n some one i really don feel like gng wad shld i do?

mayb this is the time of testing ba as gng to adult the same thing mayb happen so if i cnt handle how am i supose to move on like tat in de future? as like these adult ppl will be v bz wid their working life instead of ministry thing ba i hear tat these adult seldom have cg meeting or wad ever they're like soo bz lorx but seriously i hope i cn do afternoon wn as de pay is higher den gt extra allowance den cn slp until 12 also but if i go to afternoon i cnt c charsy anymore as i am trying to ask her come svc n nxt i gng to fast on chicken for de whole week n praying hopping she will convert some day if she does i will be v v happy mayb convert nt to my church but if she really convert in other church i will be happy also at least she is save by God

seriously in morning shift only ta shu n her not yet christian de rest of us already have our own church n plus these malay haha.. i really hope tat these ppl at my work place is either christian or malay n tat means almost all de soul r being save so if these ppl wn to join me in prayer n fasting u'll are welcome =)

2008-09-17T09:11:00.000-07:00

jus come back frm work plus outing super tried eye v itch so tis post will be v short

today work half way go LS sian den after tat work aga today i only gt 900 plus super slow cos one few time de card cnt go in to de com wah liu i sian diao nvm today wei jie took 151 to go meet some body which un know haha.. lucky ar if not he will follow me den i will sian diao haha took bus to toapayo den wen to eat wid chescy donnoe how to spell anw sharyln she go home 1st den we wen to eat ljs keep waiting for his sms until can die lor den walk ard wid chescy took for persent for shashina, sharyln nana n joleen de bday give after tat slack at mac until he call me

den nt long wen to lakeside meet him sooo long never meet le den he drive me to a park den we sit dwn there until 9 plus go home den walk wrong bus stop sian wah super tried gng to slp bb

2008-09-16T04:48:00.000-07:00

dotz...v tried!!! but mus wait for my hair to dry den cn slp haiz...

sad i haven been see-ing him online this few week!!anw haben been see-ing him since two month v sian....only cn c him online den tok de most sad thing is i really miss him haha... since de day i haven been see-ing him hope he is doing well haiz.... i am scared to lose him but wad cn i do? i felt so hopeless i don even have a chance to say i like you to him but wad cn i do?

he is soo bz wid his study haiz... sometime i really wish tat i am de book tat he is holding n reading everytime he free anw i jus found a song tat really saying my current feeling

here it goes

No one noticed the demise of my dream
Fearful for an eternal farewell, I cried often
I wasn't even afraid of losing it.
Because I believed that the future was something you found for
yourself.
Gazing at the starry sky, I asked what "strength" was.
Stretching out my trembling hand, I am here.
Without stopping, I will walk on.
The road before me is endless.
I can't tell anyone my true feelings.
I didn't even have sympathy for my own fate.
I want to forget about everything and fall asleep.
The days I spent with you shined.
I close my eyes, having faith that we will meet again.
If I'm able to be reborn someday in the future,
With a smile as big as I can make, I'll be by your side.
That is my prayer
I'm here
I asked the starry sky what "strength" was.
Stretching out my trembling hand, I am here.
Without stopping, I will walk on.
The road before me is endless.
You continue to walk along your chosen path, without faltering.
this is wad i really feel currently the promises until now i haven forget the words tat u told me n promised hopping at here to c u aga some other =)

sorry i cnt stop loving de person once i fall in love, he is de person tat really shine through, even i cnt even c myself, i jus cnt stop loving u cos u are my n only star tat shine inside my heart, a deep concer tat is very very dark, wen i'm scared u show a light n brighten my darkness world, i jus cnt stop loving you, cos u're my one n only tat show me the care & concer tat no one will give me i jus simply cnt stop loving u

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anyway was quite shock tat suddenly shpd got bf le as she told me tat she don have bf but went i go in to read her blog and found out she was lie-ing was quite sad bt nvm... i jus keep it as it is ba haha... as i still love her hehe... alt felt angry cos everytime say wn meet in de end ps den i nid to ask wei jie pei me go out as i donwn go home early shld stop here...

tried!!

2008-09-15T01:44:00.000-07:00

just reach home not long jus wnted to blog abt today? hehe.. 1st time sheryln came late just nw inside bus she nv see me until i call her den she sit wid me wahaha...today got one new gal came call chessie i donnoe hw to spell her name also sheryln say she v dao but i don feel tat way anw i was think doing sow on her if she not yet a christian haha...

trying to make fren wid her den luch time bless her wid a drink haiz now no money le sian... haha... at 1st tot of asking her to go eat tgt after work but xz n jas sms me say wn to meet but in de end jasmine cant make it so i wen home haha.... sharyln today pei me take 90 to toa payo as she don wn to take bus wid wei jie jus now wei jie really scared me off man haha.. ta shu asked him u wnt to follow who go home today wei jie say wnt to follow mei nu go home and he say the one wearing black oh shit i am de only one wearing black den i faster wear my jacket n say i wearing white nt black but lucky he nv follow me

morning time lao shi ask me to shit wid wei jie i say cn i donwn den she ask me to sit wid a malay guy lucky sia if not i cnt do my work properly sia haha... tml monring meet at mac wei jie gng to treat me sheryln n ta shu haha.... i don care i gng to call de most ex wn haha... who ask him buy thing for gf say no money but gt money treat me lunch everyday tis is teach him a lesson so tat he will noe gf must adot de not for u to bai mei wn haha...

anw i think i stop her i am tried n hugry go find food to eat haha.... i soon will become pig liao wahahahax....XD

so died

2008-09-13T19:56:00.000-07:00

dotz haha... yeah God ans my prayer haha...wei jie nv follow me to my svc oh thnx god he go to his church for svc haha... ytd me i was super died as in super tried i was gng to fall aslp anytime any where n really don hav strength at all to write sermond haha.. the only way to keep me awake is to tok to ppl as de speaker is wen jiang n he preach super boring if i am v tried i will sure slp de

so keep disturb others sorry if i disturb u all haha....esp jas she v suan to sit me wid as i keep puting my head on her shoulder until kennth n kelvin tot tat i am slp-ing dotz haha den keep drawing her hand haha...worship almost fall aslp as i super tried as u will feel werid wen every1 close eye n worship den only u open eye

after svc i really look like one zombine walking ard haha... saw emily they outside de wanton mee tok to them for awhile den wen to eat after eating i wan to go hm bt i scared i fall aslp den over load de stop so waited for jas n michelle to finish playing took train tgt wid michelle den took bus wen almos reach home kai sze called sayin abt today outing but i don think i cn meet her anymore as i having cough n body aching like hell as though i gng to died like tat no strenght to tok also i think i use finish my strength ytd haha.... i nid god to refull my strength le...

working frenz

2008-09-12T12:18:00.000-07:00

yeah jus woke up from my slp finally i gt a 8 hrs slp i am super tried course some 1 lah haha... j/k ... is so scary tat to let ppl noe tat wei jie treat me eat lunch tat 1st day i working and he pei me waiting for jas they until 6 plus wad he really nth to do sia... yeah xz come back le she share to us abt the hk trip i wish i could go there haiz....

now everyday nid to wake up at 4.30 to prepare must reach toapayo before 6.30 to take 90 before 6.30 de bus so tat i wont be late anw today onwards nid to work frm my hus to woodland contorl took the 1st mrt so i wont be late

anw i really gald tat in my work place i noe wei jie n sharlyn n they both r christian haha... sharlyn is from chc my ex church n wei jie he go every churches i also donnoe y one sad thing is sharlyn is gng to quit le 4 more week course her sch strting sad...=( i think i will be bored w/o her pei me wid wei jie as i'm quit scared of him now as he alwyz follow me saying "ni ji mo ma den wo pei ni la" is really dotz la

is just like i work for 2 day le den he treat me lunch for two wad de... and he say tat he treat only mei nu wad de hell seriously ytd i regret telling sharlyn tat he treat me for lunch she go say so loud n every1 noe den siti keep saying me n him wad de.... even da su also say me n him wad de hell we go work tgt doesnt mean wad ma is i donnoe hw to go n he bring me to de work place only ma

dotz la one thing i feel really wried is i wnt to go home le n he follow me to took bus to woodlands n he stayin at yck he say pei me take bus bt in de 1st place i no nid him to pei me go home i can go home by myself no nid ppl pei as i really use to go home by myself le really sian diao pray tat today he wont follow me to meet my cg ppl follow me go svc nvm bt go home don follow me can le or i really wnt to ask michelle pei wo le as i ask sharlyn pei me she alwyz say don wn wan to go home

i hope today go tpy early den go wid sharlyn n ta shu donwn go wid him aga seriously if sharlyn not ard i die as no one cn pei me le den i will emo le haha... anw stop here le...

last bt not least really pray tat wei jie don seat wid me n don follow me go home cn le hahah...

2008-09-06T10:23:00.000-07:00

oh gosh i am so tried!! wahaha...tried cos keep laughing n laughing today

mmm... today refection

went to meet jas at 5 plus haha..some one was late opps after tat wen to ise cafe to look for others today de pastor was pastor kai ming he really is a v funny guy we all keep laughing plus victor disturb also dotz....

mmm... i was wondering wad was my plan tat god give me? who am i in god eyes? mmm... children? or...

wonder wad have i been doing? sinning? disobey wad shpd say? mmm... think throughly wad isit really am i doing?.... mmm.... seriously i donnoe wad cn i do for god as i still do have a vision yet n i now nid to make a lots of choice n yet i donnoe which is de best for me yes i still have time to think to change course or to stay as it is but in de 1st place i really hate tat couse tat i am study in i really wish tat i cn like my frenz she change course to office as she say tat de course session head let her in sad...its really v v wried for a gal to took n retain in tat course also i hope tp study hair design bt i not good in art sian diao... donnoe wad to study...who cn tell me?

happy teacher day

2008-08-29T12:50:00.000-07:00

today sianz sick having flu dotz....wnted to go interview bt cnt go wake up at 1pm but slp at 8 plus am wah only few hr super lack of slp wahaha...sianz today whether so cold i switch fan like switch on air con like tat ha... super lazy to go out

ard 3 plus cai msn me asking me got go back to sec anot i told her nv go back haiz... i wnted to go bt no one pei me go so sian de i wnt to go c alot of teacher my math, eng, p.e, sjab, chi teacher haiz alots of teacher never teach le sad...=( haiz... i miss mr suni, mr tan n my sjab teacher haiz... esp mr tan n mr lim they r de most wonderful teacher miss them alots!!! i wonder how is my sch sjab now isit getting better or getting worse? miss these training still rmb i was de most devoted member among my pleage n my nco course platoon haha...

alt i was alwyz de last but i alwyz had tried my best in doing stuff i love st john alot course i love to do 1st aid duties n its was fun esp wid my seinor haiz... miss de day wid them as like i alwyz de one gt scolding haha... n i alwyz faint wen training anw alt i not good in footdril but i alwyz will pass my 1st aid haha... still rmb de 1st time i having 1st aid exam theory it was hard for us as we don hav any 1st aid theory den teacher giv chance is actually 25 den pass but i gt 24.5 den teacher say these who r in sec1 gt 24.5 mark r consider pass !!yeah lucky man haha...think back de 1st time ta i had 1st aid thoery still rmb pjj n wei chao was like crown making us keep laughin n laughin

wen we learn abt CPR haha.. me n few frenz was toking wah if de person is handsome we sure will help do CPR de haha.. den madm say tat if tat is a guy den de guys will do its wah sianz diao haha..miss madm merry she is de best madm among our sch haha... i hate my sir as he alwyz like find fault wid me haiz...sad...haiz... these thing had come to past... i cnt do anything haha... gtg bb

today aga

2008-08-26T11:22:00.000-07:00

dotz... wake up by my second bro aga oh i'm force to be wake up by him shit lorx....sianz.... asked me to pei him go amk to collect hp dotz.... b4 tat asked cai yun to send me some jap song hahax... i am addicted to jap song for now.... gosh......usually i hate jap song alot hahax...chat wid her abt idol haha... no matter wad i will support JJ LIN forever!! yeah!! he is sooo cute n handsome =) i love his voice soo much hahax... opps...XD... if i gt a bf gt half of his cuteness n handsome i cut out half of my life i also willing arhx...hahax... j/k j/k

love his singing alotz... anw wen to amk watched 4bit is some thing like yin yang lun is story by story over all ok la i not scared at all bt i believe if jas watch she sure shouted like hell hahax.. cos de show suddenly de ghost will come out de den u will gt a shock hahax... after de show took cab hm while waiting saw my frenz wrking wah liu he 4gt me liao sadded... hahax...over all thnx to korkor treat me watch movie hee...

today!!!

2008-08-25T10:06:00.000-07:00

sian today wake up having cough n abit of astma keep coughing n coughing non stop at least now better wahaha...

today wake up 3 plus use com 4 awhile wen to ministry hus for teaching reach there ard 6plus gng 7 after tat de whole thing strt wid prayer after tat case study den end wid prayer after everytime kathrine call me to tell me her problem i wnted to help her bt my ownself also v v broke le hope nw i cn find a job so i cn bless her n also ppl tat need it.

anw its was fun followship wid de ppl in di =)...sian... wen paul asked me am i still staying n they strt to shoot me wah liu kenneth strt de thing n den li ping they all strt to say me bt wad they say is quite ture haha... serioully i hope to change course bt i am scared tat my session head wont help me i wanna learn hair style-ing bt in ite nid english n my english super suck sian diao... i really hope tat my session head n teaching cn help me den i cn change to de course....

JUMP CONCERT!!!

2008-08-23T09:20:00.000-07:00

tis post shld be ytd post de bt too tried lazy to blog...

ytd wen for shpdin wid jas at 1st she gt shpdin wid xz bt postsope to today den tell me cn meet her den reach there abt 4 like tat she keep sayin her head gt mushroom liao la bt i super tried as i didnt slp lorx frm 3am all to way to 1 am i think...

wen to ate kfc me n her order de same thing 2 pieces chicken den slack until6 plus wait for michells(donnoe hw to spell) until 7 plus den wen there otw we three like wnt to faint like tat walk until leg v tried muslce camp

while findin de rest of e DI ppl den jas saw huiling grp so join them sk keep saying i don wn her le wah liu where gt lorx haha... jump strt ard 7.35 den we praise until leg pain while worship half way abit raining den pray tat the rain will stop i believe almost of them pray tat pray also bt v long nv have tis feel of v into de worship haha...

after tat wen to mac den full hus wah liu kenneth came den told us he go bk den wen to bk eat den wen home tgt i will stop here super tried....oyasumi....gd nite....wan an...

today!!!

2008-08-20T06:50:00.000-07:00

sianz... today didnt went out as no one wn pei me to go out staying at hm is damm boring bt i slp de whole day wahahaha... 5am slp until 1 pm den mammy said wn to go malaysia sad leave me alone at home...=( sms cai yun ask her wnt pei me go eat ant bt she say she eat le sad... ask nana go out wait for her reply cn fall aslp 2 plus slp until 6plus supper hungry den eat rice lucky mammy gt cook cos is super lazy

not long big korkor come back wid some veg ect... den mammy come back she brought some thing for me hehe... she brought me a necket n braclet is super nice i really love it!!!

today...

2008-08-18T09:56:00.000-07:00

jus nw abt 5 plus korkor asked me to pei him go shopping wahaha... bt i told him i gng amk to meet frenz but reach amk ard 5.30 or 6 cause we took cab dwn kor kor pay everything wahaha... den we go buy subway cause i hungry hehe...

after buy food wen to walk awhile saw got place wn to hired ppl so wen in interview=) den suddenly de guy giv me his name card donnoe 4 wad haha... doncare also after tat wen to op kor kor brought shorts frm ther

after tat wen to b1 saw IP zone den wen in kor kor brought 4 shirt one jeans me i brought one cap one jeans n two shirt it cos him 100 plus wah liu .... after tat i sort out de thing den wen to ministry hus wen i reach we were like stuck out cos de youth ppl r worshiping god cnt disturb

i eat my subway outside while waiting hehe... mmm.. today teaching is abt shpding by the minitry of prayer yup...

after teaching everyone in my grp left expect me kelvin & kenneth asked me whr is my grp ppl i told them they left le den kelvin say they ps me but i utd yokeling n wanyu nid to leave xz i think she is rushin for wrk micshell she nid to go hm early den jol i donnoe haha...

waited for kelvin they all wah liu at 1st no rain den wen we go out raining v heavy sia la den mus wait until kenneth n ting feng come find us den gt "yu shan" den wen to vinter work place to find him pass him thing wen to mac to eat after eating wen we wanted to go hm kelvin suddenly asked me

kelvin: hui yin are you in core team now
me: huh no ar
kelvin: you want to become core team anot
me: .... i want but i noe i still not ready yet
kelvin: god will make u be one wen u didnt notice
kenneth:hui yin i challge you to zi dong take up role in your cg
me: huh .... orh...
kelvin: ya you shld be more zi dong
kenneth: take up a sheep
me: huh but i very scared to take up a sheep
kelvin: you shld take up a sheep so tat u will grow more
me: i donnoe lehx i kathrine she now is like my sheep lik tat lorx but is yoke ling shld b her follow upper wad
kelvin: since she alwyz stick to you den u shld help yoke ling to follow up on her too
me: but is xz ask yoke to follow up on her
kelvin: u shld help her as u noe yoke ling is v bz wid her study n stuff den u shld zi dong to help her follow up on her
me: ok lorx..
wah i kanna shoot by two ppl in de same time lorx they shoot me until i had nth to say as in wad they say are also rite la but if god really wn me to be her shpd den i will take ba as i wnt to grow in god more in tis way i can grow me n mayb her more i believe god will help me de....

2008-08-15T11:45:00.000-07:00

Doushiyou mo nai shoudou ni tsukiugokasarete ima
Stirred by impulses that there's nothing I can do
Watashi no sore wa hajimatta kimi wo motomeru omoi
That has begun for me now, feelings searching for you

Yotei chouwa no shousetsu ya eiga ga tsumaranai you ni
Just like predictable movies and books are boring
JINSEE mo sukoshi ZUREtara omoshiroi no kamoshirenai
When life is a little bit off, it might be more fun

Atsui kimochi wa
This warm feeling is
C'est la vie Watashi ga watashi de iru kagiri
C'est la vie, as long as I am me
C'est la vie anata wo aishitsuzuketai
C'est la vie, I want to keep on being in love with you
Me no mae ni aru kono shunkan ga ikiru basho
Running through the place where this moment lives
Kakenukete
Right in front of me

Hito wa naze ichido dake shika ikiru CHANSU ga nai no
Why is it that people have but one chance to live life
Toki wa naze ichibyou sae mo tachidomaranai no darou
Why does time not stand still even for one second

Omoigakenai dokoka ga ne
Just like an unexpected someplace
Kutsuzure wo okosu mitai ni
Causes sores from the shoes on my feet
Tokidoki wa mune no dokoka ga setsunaku nattari suru kedo
From time to time someplace in my heart feels pain

Kitto mitsukaru C'est la vie
I know I will find you, c'est la vie
Watashi ga watashi de aru riyuu
That's the reason I am me
C'est la vie anata ga anata de aru riyuu
C'est la vie, that's the reason you are you
Nani mo mienai dakedo nanika ga mitai kara
I can't see anything, but I want to see something
Oikakete
So I chase after you

Yotei chouwa no shousetsu ya eiga ga tsumaranai you ni
Just like predictable movies and books are boring
JINSEE mo sukoshi ZUREtara omoshiroi no kamoshirenai
When life is a little bit off, it might be more fun

Atsui kimochi wa
C'est la vie, as long as I am me
C'est la vie watashi ga watashi de iru kagiri
C'est la vie, I want to keep on being in love with you
C'est la vie anata wo aishitsuzuketai

C'est la vie watashi ga watashi de aru riyuu
C'est la vie, that's the reason I am me
C'est la vie anata ga anata de aru riyuu
C'est la vie, that's the reason you are you
Me no mae ni aru kono shunkan ga ikiru basho
Running through the place where this moment lives
Kakenukete
Right in front of me
Kakenukete
Right in front of me

FINDING JOB?

2008-08-14T12:38:00.000-07:00

yoz two day nv update lehx... mmm... let c....

ytd wen to jean yip to brought my hair treatment shampool wid nana omg i super long time nv c her le luhx more den half yr le miss her alots.... bt she wn to go home not long den i was like huh so long nv meet le den u don wnt to hav some chat wid me mehx... sad... =( bt den we wen window shopping haha... love to shop wid her is really v fun!! b4 coming out asked weng fai to come wid me cause i meet nana too so we cn gather tgt n have a nice chat but too bad he nt free sadded....bt at nite korkor come back to durain YEAH!!! but i think after eating tat durain i felt so sick....

today morning was staying at home watchin curchy roll all de way until korkor brought pizza back after ate tat pizza wen back to slp i was slpin on my bro leg haha... slp until 3 plus kor kor wake me up asked me wnted to collect my spect anot haiz... wen he really wn me to go he will use alot of matted to wake me up while i'm in my dream land....

Oh man wen i wake up notice tat my hair wasnt stright like use to be my kor keep saying me waste his money only sad.... sms de guy tat help me rebond asked him to help me den he told me to go back sianz... mus go back aga!! haiz.. i have no choice but hav to go back he help me see & said its like as my hair is only shoulder length n i cuted my hair layer alot of time some my hair will be like...

mm... but he help me cut abit away so tat de hair wont be blocked after tat took cab to yishun to took my spect YEAH!! i have a new spect!! after tat i took bus home n kor kor took cab to woodland point to take his unifrom ... went i reach home 1st bro keep scolding at korkor cos until now i have nt find a job yet but korkor he still spend money on me so brother was damm angry n asked me to go find job tml sad... haiz.... he said if u still don hav a job by nxt u no nid to come back WAD E HELL!!! like tis hus is u buy de lorx... is papa de ... is nt URS!!!! HATED TO SAY TAT!!! was it my fault tat de job nv call me!!??? wad de hell r u expecting if i wrk far far mummy will say me until i v sianz to go work!! den no wrk mus find cos wad i nt studyin if i wn go study he will sure say smth de lorx... he alwyz like tat de ALWYZ!!! anw don care him lehx!!

new hair style

2008-08-12T09:17:00.000-07:00

today woke up ard 11 plus cause of aga second brother wake me up!! wad de hell ard 12 plus slp aga hp keep ringing lol...-_-" zzz... sianz... slp until 4 plus 5 bro wake me aga wen to cause way wid mama n kor kor diao... at 1st they some hw MIA den dn hav their no cnt contact den mummy call me

wen to courts brough washing machine den i was shock guess wad? haha.. i saw my sec3 sec 4 math teacher!! mr tan so qiao de haha... tok to him 4 awhile den walk away after tat wen to rebond n do my hair treatment

de price was damm ex 100plus to 200 lor the guy tat help me rebond was quite handsome lorx... opps.... haha.. den he ask me wnt to have some drink anot den he help me make tea i at there super shy lorx my face almost gone red shit!! haha... lucky nv gone red if nt is super malu lorx

anw just nw b4 rebond was a lady help me do hair treatment after tat de guy help me rebond my hair seriously they jus nw tot tat my bro is my bf wad de hack haha... they half help me rebond half toking to me they quite frenzly & funny too haha... seriously they were shock tat where gt a bro sis cme rebond her den bro pay they also wn to be my kor kor de bro & gf( for de gal) lol...-_-"

after rebond is treatment aga den wen de guy is free den he come n tok to me haha... so nice of him!! opps... i sound like i like him like he omg haha... but infact is jus admire only nth els hehe... bt heard tat these guy work at there wn is gay omg!!! really wasted wahaha....opps.... anw tml gng there to buy treatment shampool n de rebond thing also anw i took some pic of myself after rebonding my hair..

after rebonding

....

my nice hair

is my hair nice?

God's Love For Us

2008-08-11T12:32:00.000-07:00

sermond decussion for today is shpding ministry by god word part one!!!

seriously today had alot of fun wid de DI ppl yupz they simply rock my life seriously i had been 1yrs plus in this church nw den i really had a joy serving wid them... bt not to say tat i don hav any joy serving wid them in de past 1yrs plus but until now mayb cause of michelle ba i seem to draw close to joleen as like me & joleen selom joke or even go a chance to tok to each other but mayb god draw us closer tgt ba...

anw today sermond ace preach was super fast tat i almos cant caught as i'm these ppl who are slow learner den other haha... jasmine will noe as she is my dear SHPD!! hehe...today every1 r bz working study ministry project ect... so v few ppl came dwn yup... mmm... today at least i had learn something n one to apply as in i wanna apply de point C i think abt bible as i wn to go in deeper knowleage n yup i also wan to be strong chirstian tat nt by only having knowleage in mind but is also in my heart and really OBEY & APPLY the teaching yup & i really hope GOD cn help me in this area

Anw... i just now asked kathrine for her time table both work & sch bt she nv give me as her sem r gng to finish le den her wrkz will call her every wk to told her de time & everything so only sat cn meet her for shpding actually jus nw in de phone seriouly i had a hard tym expianing to her abt this as she came frm china i really utd eng and every i had learn is in eng so gosh bt thank god tat he put word in my mouth to tell her everything

wen we put down i feel tat i cn keep her in prayer she i told her i wn to keep her in prayer den she call me aga to tell her exam time table & one more thing she wnted me help her pray bt de thing cnt tell i hope she will tell yoke also ba as yoke is her follow uper nt me bt seriously i really donnoe wad shld i do as kathrine tot tat i'm her follow upper & she keep telling me thing den yoke ar.... i don noe hw le alt i hope to be a shpd bt i cnt do tis ba is smth like snatch ppl rice bowl

Seriously... i donnoe wad to do i am stuck & yokeling until now didnt reply my sms i seriously donnoe wad to do by jus keep pushing her to yokeling & telling her anything u cn find me bt u shld find yoke 1st if u cnt find her den cme find me but until now i think i'm de 1st one to noe every thing but not yokeling mmm...

anw... while chatting on de phone for hrs wid her i was inspited by her aga as in i sme how see de faith in her life she told me tat wen she was in china cos china de churches r uder ground churches as like they cnt believe in GOD ect... den she pray to god tat she wnt to cme to s'pore she keep praying for past 2 yrs the 1st yrs she wen to de exam to come to s'pore to study & also cme here so tat she cn serve GOD our lord but she fail most ppl may think she will be sad BUT she not sad at all she believe god has a plan for her god will hear her prayer one day n yes the second yr she did it n came to s'pore bt she forgtten is god tat help her pass de exam bt some hw god send some1 to remind her n yes! she rmb all this are god's plan she really v thnkful tat god love nv leave her n at 1st she tot tat god 4gtten abt her prayer bt HE who is our Lord did not forgotten her prayer!!

wow... is such a powerful testi isnt it? arent u touch? i gt touch by her faith tat she had seriously nw aday who're willing wait for his ans? testing cme who r these keep holding on to the promise? is not many ppl is really nt many workers are there yup! nt many like her put all de trust and everything surrder to God
yes! we say we surdder our heart to him fully but who will do it in action & not by words? is not by lips serivce is by ACTION!!! seriously in tis real life story i cn really see & feel god's love for us

" I AM REALLY REALLY TOUCH!!!" and some how my dryness has refill slowly mmm.. i shld end wid a prayer ba

prayer
Dear father, i seek in ur presence rite now please give me direction wen i'm lost father i also pray for kathrine You see her heart & desire for You oh Lord help her in her exam bless her with wisdom so that she can uderstand the teaching that we will share and also the seromd for service and also for her exam so that she can pass her exam father see her hard work in you Lord grow her mould her so that she will stand firm in your love oh Lord give her vision she that she know your purspose for her Lord i give thanks in advance and i pray in jesus name Amen!!

NI AI WO MA?

2008-08-10T09:43:00.000-07:00

从前我们走过的地方

像是一幅幅美丽的画

曾经那些天真的梦想

是不是只能是童话

为什么我们变成这样

拿着电话却说不出话

或许眼泪不让它流下

就好像不那么悲伤

你爱我吗你是爱我的吧

当你眼睛低下低下头不说一句话

你爱我吗你是爱我的吧

未来真的很长

如果你不愿意回答

最后我会再问一次你爱我吗?

为什么变得如此沉默

回忆我们最初的承诺

就让那些浪漫的所有

都消失成黑色天空

你爱我吗你是爱我的吧!

当你眼睛低下低下头不说一句话

你爱我吗你是爱我的吧!

未来真的很长

如果你不愿意回答

你爱我吗你是爱我的吧!

未来真的很长

如果你不愿意回答

最后我会再问一次你爱我吗!

ni ai wo ma?

sauy rang wo men dou mei you kai shi gou dan wo zhi dao ni cheng jing shi ai wo de dan dao sian zai wo zhen de hao xiang zhi dao ni hai ai wo ma?

bu guan ni zhe me hu ta wo dou hui jie shou wo zhi yao ni shou ni ai bu ai wo zhen de hao gou wo zi ji yi ge ren qu cai ni zai xiang zhe me wo zhen de hao lei hao lei sui rang ni chen jing shuo gou ni shi bu hui zai li kai den wo zhi dao ni de xin yi bu zai wo shen pie le

wo yi zhi dou zai tuo bi wo zhen de bu xiang zhi dao wo zhen de hao xiang zhi dao wo bu xiang zai qu cai le yin wei wo zhen de hao lei hao lei le wo bu xiang zai ting ni shou bian hua le wo zhi dao ni

shi bu hui ai shang wo de.....

zui huo zi neng zhu fu ni ba......

donnoe?

2008-08-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

mmm... ytd i was late for svc as i gt to wait for a sis as she donnoe how to go to svc anw b4 tat wen to yishu as my kor wnt to help me do spect ard 3 plus den finish all de checkin n everything wen take mrt saw alex he wen to hou kang to find jass after katherine called asking me where is me mm.. told her i jus bored de train she asked me to wait for her at amk so i asked alex to pei me wair till she reach

cn c tat she was quite worry cos we was late for svc!! omg... alex forget to bring his hp so he borrow my hp to sms his gf so sweet...=) me n katherine tok until over shoot one stop sianz ... took train back to summerset we was super late lorhx...wen after p&w katherine wnts me to wrote some encourgement & vers for her to refer me was too bz write den didnt caught de 1st point so i asked kelvin wad is de 1st point jas tot i keep toking to her n nt concerate bt de real thing is tat i was telling her to read bible n wad is qt n everything she was sayin wn me to be her teacher to teach her de thing bt de point is i am nt her shpd so all de thing yoke ling shld teach nt me i only cnt help her abit like sharing e thing i learn ect...so i will be helping yokeling to take care of her also? donnoe bt atleast i tot her nxt time gt anything she shld told yoke ling n nt me cos i cnt really do anything also...

tot she will stay eat tgt bt she left 1st i tried to ask her stay bt she cnt sad =(... anw svc de sides was so fast we haven write finish den nxt side le den must copy frm other like frm sherlyn n jol until jas say me lol...is nt i don wn consentae bt is i nid to expain to her some of the point tat she don utd nw den i utd they tat time yoke ling miss some of de point le mmm... actually i was quite inspire by her as i cn see she really wnt to learn wnt to grow

she told me she was sad as her fren didnt come n cos of her work after praise n worship she felt much better so i told her wen u felt sad jus tok to god it will feel better or listen to p&w it will surly feeling better anw i really wish to c her grow =) and i really v happy to see her desire for god amen!!!

anw after svc wen to ps eat dinner wid all de DI ppl meimei was sad me n jas try to comfont her until v long den she say wad happen after tat wen to foodcourt eat den me n vincent choose jap food after eating celebrate sherlyn bdayden she wen to wrkz den angel li ping they all wen to eat dinner i wnted to go le bt xz don let as i nid to save bus fare also sad bt i really enjoy my time wid jol jas n micshell we was like de forcus of every one there cause we sing bday song v loud den affirmation also quite fun den kelvin say we was like de forcus of de crow sia....

Haha.. jol was quite blur ytd donnoe why also den we keep laughin at her we was like keep laughing n laughin n laughing non stop den we also play wid jol we kept jol hp n don let her go home her react was damm funny den we keep blaming her for making us keep laughing so poor thing haha...

abt 11 plus we wen to mac den jol contact alex say wn go star bucks so we wen there den kelvin wen up to find us bt me jas n michell felt starbucks really v ex so we decided to go back to mac to brought drink kelvin and kenneth wen wid us we had a nice time chating n disturbing kenneth keep suaning him after tat wen back to starbucks abt 12 plus den wen home kelvin asked me to take bus wid them until summerset there took my nite rider oh shit kenneth told me saying mon die die i also mus c u there in ministry hus kelvin also asked me to go die liao cnt escape this time oops haha.. no lahx... j/k j/k hehe... mm.. reach home one plus bath den wen to slp super tried...

yoz

2008-08-07T13:37:00.000-07:00

ytd go down to woodlands old cental there to brought his hp me i brought two dress yeah!! den brought top up card & sim card den wen home hehe... today slp at 8 plus plus wahahaha... cause nid to help korkor charge his new phone n cnt let big korkor c MUST HIDE!!! hehe... anw donnoe y keep on askin ppl to save up bt come to me i keep spendin n spending lol... sianz... no more money le nid to FIND JOB!! sian.... mummy always ask me to go work aiya lazy to talk abt her liao anw jus nw abt 2 plus wake up woo haha...den slack 4 awhile wen to cg!! hee.. today yoke ling quite crazy i cn see tat wahahaha.... btw i'm the 1st to reach today!! YEAH!! reach there ard 6 plus bt wen i reach amk mrt station die raining heavily i call yoke ling she nv pick up oh gosh!! we wen out tat time lucky de rain gets smaller i faster brought de holy comm stuff n chuo reach ministry hus de youth ppl still at there den wait 4 de rest in de rm not long wan yu come den yoke ling haha... while waiting we like open singin session abt 8 like tat den they reach jas nv come den yoke n jol mus write their own lyrics i nth to do so i took some video of them haha.. ai cnt upload de video so too bad haha... mmm.. holy comm was cancel den jump to sharing den jol wnted to pray for us den we pray for each other n celebrate wan yu bday after tat bus hm & nw i am here blogging so tried...

yeah

2008-08-04T08:19:00.000-07:00

sat
wen to svc as usual b4 svc saw kathria(dn noe hw to spell) i quite surprise tat she gt cme wors den tok to her bring her to noe emily n kaisze n other frm as i hope she will feel v warm welcome in our church cos ours r really v diff frm others alt we don cme frm same grp or wad bt we r one whole family we will help one another no matter wad n really hope she cn inspiated by emily and other ppl and really to grow more n love god more

mmm... svc strt bt i cnt really fouces as inside my heart i really pray tat god some hw will speak to u alt i noe she is vincent contract n she may nt be my sheep bt no matter wad i still hope tat we cn sever tgt as a team as a family anw i noe she no money to buy bible so i give her my bible as i had think of giving her bible v long ago at 1st she told me she cnt take my bible bt i told her i at hm gt extra one so she took my n i take back my old bible ba

alt tat bible is my frenz c me alwyz bring so big bible n my shoulder will alwyz pain den he give me de small wn de bt i believe god will help me de wen i give once u give god will bless
like my ex leader bernard he told me b4 he say " i bless wid tat money u i dn wn u to return bt i wn u use tis money to bless others" pastor also say before la giving to others is better den reciving alt i cnt help anything bt i really hope through this kind of small act to make them feel loved and hope tat they cn feel god's love frm all kind of blessing

ytd wen to x2 thnkz giving day really have a gd time wid kai sze as i really v long nv really tok to her at 1st tot she dn wn to cme bt hehe.. she gt go worss happy!!! almos of them r late haha.. 1st time i am de 1st to reach there jaz n xz cme tgt she actually tot wn to ask her father to give me a ride too bt they cnt contact me so ya lor haiz...anw after e whole thing wen hm wid jaz they all

actually i wn to go FOP bt i really v tried den ps kaisze mmm... sry ar kai sze i ps u n wen anw take 178 hm really v tried reach hm tot cn slp le bt my sec bro keep waking me up wad e hell wah liu really feel like give him one punch sianz diao bt he treat him eat nice food den help me buy cloth ok lor 4give him lah...

2008-07-24T14:24:00.000-07:00

mmm... sunday

wen to membership cls n YES FINALLY i cn go!!! last yr i miss de resgistion tis yr xz help me register THNX ALOT!! serioully de membership cls was super crowed until these ppl who cme in late mus stand not enough seat lucky me n liping was a 1st few to reach wen we reach we wen up to pool area bt de resgistion haven strt so we wait at de pool there me n li ping we v tempted to jump into de pool n slacking until 2.30

abt 2.30 we wen to register n pay de fee we both wen in at 1st was playin some game after tat was a short video n den strt de membership cls e speaker 4 tat day was pastor jeff its really cool man i am quite refresh after tat as usual pastor was keep joking along as he preach n he shared to us hw he sever god in his life wasnt it refreshing?yes it really inspiried ppl thru his life...

thurs

wen to cg today at 1st tot xz n jas will cme in de end they gt stuff to do so cnt cme anw as usual we wen to eat tuo hui after wen to bugis to eat dinner after our dinner wen home today de whole trip was listing to p&w mmm... tats all 4 nw...

family?

2008-07-21T07:32:00.000-07:00

wad is real family? f-father a-and m-mother i l-love y-you i wonder areant family are these people who will love each other care for one another ma? y i don c it apply to my family in fact no matter wad i do r wrng in their eyes i go out wif fren is wrng i stay at hm is wrng i have try my best to huant for a job also wrng

why they cnt utd WHY!!!! i hate them!! why everytime alwyz cos of money we quarrel hw i wish i cn be rich hw i wish i cn find a job everytime i gt a job they also NT HAPPY WAD SHLD I DO!!! my hard earn money also wn to take WHY!!! kor kor so wad BIG ISIT!!! NO NID TO PAY ME MEH LOL!!!

IN TIS HUS NO MORE LOVE!!! i don care anymore y my mammy don utd keep forcing me to go work!!! wen i study she say "U BETTER GO FIND WORK" WEN I QUIT STUDY N FINDIN JOB SHE SAY " Y DONWN GO BACK STUDY" WAD THE FUCK SHE WN ME TO DO I HATE HER I DONNOE MY BIG BRO ASK ME GO WORK SAYIN IF I FOUND A JOB I GO U MONEY $ BUSFARE WEN FOUND WN HE SAY IF ONLY U GO BACK STUDY DEN I GIV U MONEY WAD THE FUCK HE WN

I JUS WN TO LET MY HEAR TO REST CNNT ISIT EVERY TIME I GO HM MAMMY WILL ASK" WEN U WN TO FIND JOB" IF I FOUND A JOB I DON HAV BUSFARE TO GO ISIT DE SAME kor kor wnt give me money to eat so i have to work in F&B SO I HAVE FREE LUNCH TO EAT BT IF I WORK IN F&B I CNT GO SVC DEN XZTHEY ALL WILL KEEP ASKIN ME TO GO WAD CN I DO

ONE IS GOD ANOTHER IS MY FAMILY WAD SHLD I DO?? IHATE MYSELF I HATE MY FAMILY I HATE MY EVERTHING NO ONE CARE NO ONE NOES NO ONE UTD I AM SOO TRIED I AM SOO TRIED I HATE WAD I AM NW I JUS WN MY DADDY BACK!!! IF MY DADDY BACK I STILL WILL HAVE MY DADDY LOVE ME NO ONE LOVE ME IN MY HUS I DON WN TO STAY IN TIS HUS ANYMORE !!! I DONWN TO CARE ANYMORE LE WAD THEY SAY ONE EAR IN ONE EAR OUT I DON WN TO CARE ANYMORE!!!!

yo yoz

2008-07-19T10:15:00.000-07:00

wahhaha... i have five day nv update le lol...mmm...

strt frm wed

wed wen to watch hellboy2 wid my korkor as he wn to pass me thing i met him at cwp ard 2plus 3 i tot i was late bt he is late as usual he alwyz late lol bt he reach le also nv tell me until i sms-ed him den i noe he was alrdy at cwp i waited for him to come mos to find me lol bt i think he nv he me wahaha... or mayb cnt recongize me lol

after tat wen to brought ticket n walk ard woodlands area as we brought 5.15 de show we tok alot like frenz family sch ect... until 5plus we wen back to cwp den reach there cnt go in lol anw de show is damm nice n super funny wahaha... after tat we wen home i took bus 856 as i lazy to walk bt i saw jie hong (my sec sch clsmate) i still rmb we as like to shoot each other wen we saw each other we chated in de bus until reach home i find out he leave 3 blk away frm me lo diao anw cn c tat he really change alot..

thurs

wen to care grp 4 awhile den took bus home lol actually i donnoe frm amk mus go dbg so i left early i brought westen food frm amk hub n bus hm reach home ard 8 plus chated to yong hui 4 awhile wen to slp lol.. super tried ...

fri

whole waitin 4 jas sms to shpd me bt in de end she didnt sms me anything i think aga she is facing problem so msn her at nite askin her wen she wn shpd me bt didnt reply mmm... think she nid more time to settle herself ba...

sat

today wake upard 1 plus as i slp ard 5plus in de morning chated wid xz awhile abt jas n membership cls den offline cause nid to prepare to go svc le at 1st i told jas will come bt she didnt cme i wrote some "love letter" 4 her bt she didnt cme i am quite sad bt over all i still ok =)

today sermond did speak to me directly some time i felt lonely cos my family my frenz don utd why i believe in GOD everytime wen i go work wen is time to seat tgt to go i felt so wried as i am e only one who r chirstian i felt so felt out wen i was in chc i felt left out as all r indonation ppl only i am chi they speak basa bti don utd

everytime i was wid grp of frenz i felt lonely as some how they left me out wen u saw me run v v fast or walkin v v fast tat mean i felt v left out i felt i v extra some time i even cry cos of this bt nw i noe y n i noe wad to do de key is

"wen i felt tis way i mus turn to GOD 4 strength to renew me to reflesh me"
its will nv be late to turn to him 4 strength de sermond really spek to me alots n also jus nw wan yu frenz jus convert yeah tat all 4 nw..

happy birthday korkor

2008-07-15T10:09:00.000-07:00

yoz haha... today wen to celebrate my sec bro bday really hav a v fruitful nite wid my ex religous cls frenz n e bday boy haha.. we all enjoying ourself in de kbox these kor kor n jiejie singin was damm good lo bt my bro de 1st or sec song he zou yin haha.. i told guo qing korkor

He say "where cn say like tat today he bday cnnt say like tat" e act was damm funny i laughed like siao no one noes wad did i said wahaha...den he sing until cnt breath den make a long of fummy sound n changing e song lyrics is really super funny we really enjoy alot cos guo qing korkor really make us laugh until like siao =)so long nv c him le still de same nv change at all.

I sing a few song as mu singing damm suck bt de last song was ok i cn hit de high key wa usually i cnt abt 11 plus we cut de cake n take one full photo n den wen home haha... me n korkor took cab home den they rest took mrt...

finally?

2008-07-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

ytd i feel really v v bad as i nv go for church as my kor really donwn mto giv me busfare to go i wn to go bt i cnt haiz...stay at hm nth to do bt atleast watch some dramma i watch tis dramma since i sec if i nt wrng is abt hw de devil use our thought to temp us to win de soul into de drakness bt these is a father he keep stopping ppl enter to de door of drakness

i like one sentance is say we cnt loose hope when er loose hope we will loose faith wen we loose faith we will we strenght mmm.. i donnoe how to expaint bt is v nice show to watch is call pawnshop no 8 is a vv nice show to watch mayb ppl these who watch cn come to noe god n wn to noe god better no body noes i hope ppl will watch it hehe... cos its is v v nice....

feeling wried

2008-07-11T11:13:00.000-07:00

yo ytd was having informal shpding wid jas cos no time 4 e teachin i tot i was e one who r late bt in de end she was later den me wahaha... den suddenly kelvin call me oh no keep askin me de same question which i tot him thousands time its really make me feel v irratiting as now i jus wn to stable myself gt myself a job every thing 1st b4 i go in an other r/s another reson is i wn to heal my heart as i hav a v v painful fall last yr which i am still picking my self up

anw nt long after i brought food n waiting 4 jas to come i was thinkin tat i wn to be more fat so tat no1 will come n disturb me hahaha... anw abt 10 min later jas come haha... den i strt to eat yeah jas bless me wid a extra fries as i super hungry after tat wen to brought card 4 a new believer den wen to find yoke ling at foodcourt abt 7 plus all de ppl reach abt 8 plus den wen to shopping we shop half way de new be she wnted to go home so she left n we contiue to walk ard den xz n joleen brought sushi den we sharing after tat we wen home

we took de same train as alots of ppl takin train so i decided to take rebound jas yoke wanyu n xz go dwn at raffles place den left me alone as i super tried don wish to move so i didnt took de same train wid xz after they left i slp all de way until yio chu kang reach home ard 11 plus 12

today lol totally stay at hm de whole day nth to do sianz anw i wake up ard 4 plus wow super long almost 12 hrs den wake up wen online den chating wid wen fai who is my pri sch clsmate anw mean while i was check my friendster i saw one of my bro fren profile he also my st john sir tat taking care of my platoon in nco course mmm... he is really a v nicest sir in my zone as he keep giving us chances n trying his best to help us he is really a v nice guy bt wen i read his profile everytime i found he change change until i cnt recongize him actually i don mind tat he had change to be better bt he is nt he change to be a bad guys i really cnt utd y bt i really hope tat he wont hurt anyone tat is ard him tat really cares 4 him so i decided to write him a msg in frenster i really hope to c him happy cos i really don wish tat ppl ard sad sad de

anw i am hungry aga donnoe y nw aday i v easily hungry haiz my eye pain since many week ago haven recover sianz haiz....

missing

2008-07-09T10:55:00.000-07:00

yoz jus pass by my sec sch website really miss my sec sch life alot wid my frenz ect.. alt almost of them r jus hi bye frenz but the momorise was so happy alt i was left out in my cls bt i still gt two frenz alt they alwyz askin me to treat them n they r rich den me bt i don mind to treat them drink or food

alt alots of unhappy momorise in my art lesson really hate my art teacher still rmb v clearly me n my frenz keep laughin at her sayin she 4ever comfirm no 1 wan to marry her one of my frenz call her lao chu nu so bad haha... sometime cos of her i dont really wn to go sch as she was my sec 1 form teacher

actually de teacher i miss de most is Mr sunny, mr lim, mr tan, my SJAB teacher mrs nambars(donnoe hw to spell) really hope they r doing fine i really miss my fav teacher mr sunny de story n his joke oh ya i cnt 4gt abt mr teo n mr on de two P.E teacher n they r de offices of de ncc

still rmb Mr keep saying me nt runing n laugh at me cos i cnt run bt the person i really miss is my sec 3&4 math teacher mr tan guo yang serioully de way he walk n act is really v sassy omg haha cnt believe he still gt ppl love him cos he wnt help us buy thing wen we r selling food so staingy self fish bt over all he is a really v gd teacher if we donnoe hw to do he will teach us untill we noe he really v paient

i still rmb wen i was sec one i like my D&T teacher bt he teach us half way nv teach le i still rmb everytime his cls i will nv slp de n de rest will fall aslp haha wen he ask qestion only i cn ans bt too bad he wen over sea to study i was v sad at tat time bt wad cn i do?

anw my sec 3 was v fun & also wher my nite mare strt fun part was during cpa lesson we will go online de e whole gal row will online den some ppl will help to c teacher isit lookin at de com anot its really damm fun sometime de guys wn to sabo me bt my teacher don believe haha... bt wen com to art my nite mare come e teacher name is miss selvi aka miss selfish/ lao chu nu haha...actually de ppl tat let her teach b4 will hate her alot she anw scold ppl de at her cls totally no freedom bt one gd thing is we cn bring mp3/ disc man to her cls to listen so it wnt be so boring

actually over i really miss de teacher there n my st john training ...

over nite

2008-07-09T09:41:00.000-07:00

last fri have a fun time wid my cg ppl we r totally refresh too hehe... god's presence was soo strong actually while i was praying a vers keep coming in my mind
2 Thessalonians 2
13But we ought always to thank God for you, brothers loved by the Lord, because from the beginning God chose you[b] to be saved through the sanctifying work of the Spirit and through belief in the truth. 14He called you to this through our gospel, that you might share in the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ. 15So then, brothers, stand firm and hold to the teachings[c] we passed on to you, whether by word of mouth or by letter. actually i hearing some voice asking to say out bt i didnt have de courage to say de word stand firm keep repeating inside my mind bt i didnt say out cnt i was v scared tat mayb i think too much or its is a false wn so i didnt say out

mm.. after sharing me jas was playing pool woo so long nv play le after tat ard 3am we wen to slp i couldnt slp well as de aircon was so cold n i cnt breath at all cos of my nose block n tat y i couldnt slp at all i think 5 plus tat time i heard some1 was walking ard i tot was xz she wan to wen off so i didnt wake up ard 10 plus i woke up i saw xz i was wondering hey xz was still here den jus nw was who walking ard n close de door?

bt at de den i didnt care mmm... anw while waitin wan yu go bath we were play some game here r de video

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